I don't know what the exact line is but it go's something like " when I became a man I put away childish things" .....I cried like a baby yesterday and as usual got support from those that loved me and as I was just about to doze off I had a lightbulb moment. I asked for it. I want to live in peace. I want to work in peace. I wanted these people out of my house and it is happening. I can't have my cake and eat it to.........I believe that everything will not be ok, but better than I could ever have imagined or dreamed for myself. I am praying that my brother and my neice move in. This is a six bedroom house with a bedroom on the first floor, three bedrooms upstairs along with an office. If he steps out on faith and gives his apartment the notice we could both give my father 89% of what he asked for, save in utilities, his child would be closer to her mother, he would be closer to work and we would all be closer to eachother.

I have to take some responsibilty as far as why he is not here in the first place...I have always been one of those people that wants the house to look perfect. I grew up with the lines being vacumed the same direction inthe carpet, no dishes soaking in the sink, no water marks being left on tables, no visible signs of toothpaste on the mirror, men putting the toilet down after using it. I have to admitt I got on my brothers last nerve when he stayed here all of 2 months and decided to move out , I saw him as that little brother and not a 30 year old that had the right to leave a dish in the sink or leave a blanket on the couch. I spoke to him yesterday not as sister to a brother but ass a woman to a man and firmly stated I was wrong and regreted the choices I made.

The ball is in his court now and as I stand at the foul line I am praying he gives me a second chance and realizes I am speaking from my heart and not just saying what he wants to hear.

On a lighter note Smokey has flossed his teeth very well with the kiddie pool......Isnt that special...lol