It has been a very long time.....

Wow....I haven't been on this in over a year....where should I start? My life is really kind of crazy right now. I am about to start the process of getting divorced....yeah......but I have an amazing one year old boy named Christian who is the light of my life. My whole world did a 360 when I had him, which I assume happens to every sane mother. I just moved back to Texas from Mississippi (where my husband is). I still love him, but we are two totally different people who want completely different things and I just can't put up with his shit anymore...so I'm living the single life....I got drunk in Shreveport with some friends last night. Definitely needed that.....it was a blast. I kinda made the mistake of falling back in love with Josh. I swear, I have to be the most stupid person on the face of the earth. How many times can you fuck someone before you realize that maybe you just shouldn't. AT ALL! He is the biggest asshole I know...but yet, he is so adorable...my mom is pissed at me about the divorce but it's my life and I have to think about the well being of my son and myself....I haven't seen any new movies lately...well, I saw Jumper...I want to see The Ruins.....might be good....So I guess I am going to try to live for as long as I can without love...I think I am stronger than before...but only time will tell........