Have you ever looked around at all the stuff going on in your life and wondered where God is?  You seem to be getting pummeled on every side without any time to rest and recover, never mind prepare yourself for the next blow.  Well, thats where God has had me for a while.

On Friday evening, before I left to bring my kids to their dads for the weekend I failed to notice my child go through my purse to find his Gameboy that he had put in it earlier.  Considering it is a two hour drive and we were running late, I decided to wait after I dropped the kids off to get gas instead of on the way.  After I got back on the highway I started watching for exists with gas stations.  I had to drive about 20 more miles before I saw a Speedway sign.  I grabbed my purse to get the $20.00 I had put in my wallet for gas earlier.  Much to my horror however, my wallet was gone.  I franticly searched the car, but couldnt find it anywhere.  So there I was about 110 miles from home with only a quarter of a tank to get me there.  Considering I have a 12 gallon tank, things arent looking so good.

So I get back in my car, and think about the lecture I had been listening to about chapter 11 in the Book of Hebrews.  Basically to summarize the chapter, it is about living by faith, not by sight, and fixing your eyes on Jesus regardless of what is going on around you. 

"What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen.  It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see." (Hebrews 11:1)

So I said, OK Jesus, You obviously want to make sure I understand this chapter on a personal level because I am about to live it.  So I began praying, called on His promises, and started out on what seemed like the impossible.

As I passed through Lansing, about 65 miles from home, I was down to 1/8^th of a tank of gas.  At this point there was nothing I could do to conserve enough gas to make it home, so I again called out to God and His promises to provide for His children.  The fact that the lecture on the next chapter in the Book of Hebrews had just began caused me to squirm a little (you will have to look it up if you want to know why), but I quickly turned it off.  For right now I wanted, no needed to have faith. 

I cant tell you how relieved, and grateful I was about an hour later when I pulled into my parking space and the fuel light hadnt even gone on yet.  I was also relieved to walk into my house and find my wallet sitting on the floor beside the outlet where the charger is plugged in for my kids Gameboy. 

Exhausted emotionally and physically, I went to bed and thought about the night. I had driven far beyond what I should have been able to with so little fuel, but God had somehow stretched what was there and got me home.  I trusted Him through faith and He kept His promises.  No doubt He was with me tonight.

But there was more to it, well for me anyway.  These days it seems my day never ends.  I could never figure out which was worse emotional or physical exhaustion, but now I know, its actually the combination of them both. I was beginning to see my experience tonight as a picture of what I am experiencing in life. Many days I find myself pleading with God for a break because my life gas tank is on empty, there is no station in sight, and even if there was I dont have my wallet to pay for it.  But no matter how many miles God still has laid out on the road before me at the end of each day, even though I feel I am at the end of my fuel supply, He will always make sure I have enough to make it. Basically I see it as a personal reminder to me to stop worrying and have faith in His promises.    

"So dont worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries.  Todays trouble is enough for today." (Matthew 6:34)