Nothing like spending time in His presence!  Ya know ... a friend and I were toalking the other day and kinda comparing notes.  She and her husband have 4 adult children and I have 3 ... all raised on the Word et al.  We were sharing tales of our kids peculiar belief systems.  For example, my older daughter is now engaged to a nice Christian young man and they plan on a nice long engagement ... however, they are sexually active in spite of God's clear commands to the contrary.  There is no Fear of God ... The story of Ananias and Saphira is like a fairy tale ... Mind you ... I'm not quite asking God to return to the place of "Ananias and Saphira" demonstrations, well ... maybe I am ... ? 

We all have our lessons to learn, don't we?  There is no way that I could walk in close relationship with God doing that, and I'm sure they can't either, since sin brings spiritual death.  However, we must learn to love Him more than anything else, and we grow in that.  Thankfully--and I'm not telling you anything you don't know--there is forgiveness as we grow in that love. 
Parenting has its moments, doesn't it? 

It does ... Knowing it is sin cancels out the element of fun ... I'm not necessarily talking about sex, but anything really ... if it's sin, even if it is something I once enjoyed, it is no longer fun ... < sigh >  but plenty of other things ARE fun! 

I think this is what is wrong with me.  The misery and longing in me is Him calling and His want of my company, so he lets me feel HIS loneliness.

You know that I respect your walk with Him.  However, sis, God isn't lonely.  He has need of nothing and is complete in Himself!  

I know, of course, but it is an analogy; my way of saying that he created EACH of us for the soul purpose of communion with him, and the loneliness in ourselves is the God shaped hole.  And I do believe he longs for us as much as he puts the longing in us for him.  I know it is a human emotion, but I am using the only comparison I can in my human mind.  I know he is God and therefore, does not have emotions as we do, but he was man as well, and understands exactly what we feel and feels the same for us....otherwise, why would it say he is a jealous God? Because he has the ungodly trait of jealousy? No, but for us to understand how he feels when we are not giving him and him only our love and attention.

Now, don't argue.  I know God does not need me, but I choose to believe he does.  He created us because he WANTED if not NEEDED to have someone to commune with and he chose us.  He is the lover of my soul, and as such would miss me if I were not there to meet him on a daily basis.

But I met with him today and I FELT his joy because he flooded my soul with his peace that he says he gives because he lives in my praises. And of course, as it always is, I felt such regret for neglecting him, for it is He and He alone who can satisfy my soul.