I'm writing this using PICO. Pico is a text editor in UNIX. The reason I'm writing in UNIX is because it looks like I'm doing work instead of posting on my blog.
I guess the only problem is that any window that my boss doesn't recognize would be considered not working. I just think it is too much trouble to write my posts in a QuarkXpress box. Oh well, I suppose that is my next option.
Starting a new schedule today... again. I have tried to do this many times and I always end up stopping. I always tell myself that it will be different this time and it isn't. I'm really the only one to blame for that. Blame... I hate blame.
So to absolve myself from guilt... I'm not going to force myself to do anything. I want to get to bed at a decent time in order to wake up and go for a walk around the pond at the park. I may do it or I may not. I don't have to do it if I don't want to. I have found that committing myself to NOT do something is a sure-fire way for me TO do it. I have to turn it into a challenge of sorts.
"Go ahead Chilly, you can do it if you really want to. I don't mind. If you feel that strongly about it.. just do it."
It is those moments when I have the option that I re-think the action, "Okay... well now that I know I can... I wonder if I should?" Funny, how I don't think of that at first. Instead I'm so focused on my free-will. I don't like being forced into anything! Makes me worry for the poor firefighter who may have to save me from a burning building.
"What do you mean your TAKING me? Do I have a say in this?"
In the end, I did get up and I did take that walk. I'm going to have to take some pictures because the park is really beautiful in the morning. The park has this big pond in the middle which is schweet. There are ducks and other critters that are active in the AM. It really made it worth it to take that walk.
I may (or may not) take that walk tomorrow.
walking
