Don't you hate how life can be going so good for you and then bam you get hit my something that completely knocks you down and shatters your life...
Let me explain a little bit, i dont remember very much of my school years i was a little out of it...no i wasn't on drugs or anything like that i just didn't pay much attention to it..but i met Jonathan when i was 13..he was in my english class and his mom was a new teacher at my school. His brother Billy and I became instant friends, we always hung out together..me and Jonathan were close too and he used to always have a thing for walking me to class...he was younger than I was and he was in junior high meaning we only had one class together and somehow my classes were always on the way to his classes..haha...
His sister Suzanne was like my best friend, she was the first to introduce me to black lipstick and dark clothes...
They moved a year or so later and we still tried to keep contact as much as possible but it wasn't the same, I found out recently that Billy is engaged to one of my best friends Maria and that he is living in the next town over now..which was surprising but good...
The worst news hit me today...Jonathan 17 years old..hung himself on Jan. 4th, 2008..he had gotten into some legal trouble, shot a guy over a girl and was facing up to 30 years in prison if convicted....
my heart sank today when I heard the news...I couldn't believe what was happening to me, her I had just saw him a few months ago, exchanged emails a few times but other than that we kind of lost touch...and now he's gone...
I can't deal with this right now...
I dont know what to say
I dont even know what to do...
hate
