omgosh ben i'm so sorry about everything....
i wish i could make you feel better...
is there any way i can?
if there is let me kno and if i can, then i'll do it.

Promise!

<3Dayna

god undoubltly wants me to live because 5 loratabs and 30 tylenols with liquor won't kill me it will make me very sick but i didn't do it from her i kinda knew that was going to happen because like i saw my long lost dad the other day and it killed me inside a little bit more than usual so i tried to kill myself i told my mom i was just sick and she knew what i did because its happened before and all so yeah it sucks to be me right now. thanks for being there for me and all

hunny dont try to kill urself!!! plz!!! i know that there are so many ppl that care about u! i know that seeing ur dad musta been hard.... like... freakishly hard.... but sweetie... there are so many ppl that can be there for you if he's such a fucking ass hole not to be...
dont let him bring ur life down.... ur too good for him

~ <3Dayna

its not my fault he doesn't have the balls to talk to me but it hurts so bad though its like a empty hole that can't be filled for me

sweetie i know its not ur fault! it's his!! he's a fuckin ass hole....
i know no one will ever replace ur dad... but u do kno there are so many ppl that can try and help

i know that but it isn't like i have many friends come on look at em they are all preppy now except the ones i hardly see so yeah and my mom keeps giving me shit on top of it for christ sake she stays out till 3 in the morning now drinking with her boyfriend. i wish things could go back the way they were

seriously just tell ur mom to back off b/c ur not in a good mood...
and if she's gonna be irresponsible like that when she has you, then that's pretty messed up....
idk how to make u feel better

i'm sorry ben! you deserved sumone good and then she hurt you! i wish i could help you! but since you don't exactly live down the street anymore i can't go over and you can't come over! but if i can help in any way...PLZ tell me!

hope everything gets better soon!

 

bye ben

yeah well read what i put on daynas because i don't want your dad or mom to see what i wrote

 

ok...but they don't look at my mindays. only myspace! haha

well read it anyway because i don't want to talk that chance

 

i did! i just don't understand! i mean...i know about you and what problems you've had throughout ur life...but why not tell me?? i mean...we're supposed to be friends! and if u told me not to tell my parents sumthin i wouldn't! so talk to me about things from now on! k?

ok well i am tired of living this shitty life i get told how bad i am by my mom and shit so yeah. i can't even wear what i want anymore it sucks i have to wear preppy shit to bad i don't have a real mom who accepts me for who i am but killing myself isn't the answer i know that but that is not the point my dad could save me from alot of this shit so ya know

 

yea...i know! thats stupid! ur u and no one else! but i am here for you. if you ever just need to get out! k?

ok

 

i like that thing! haha

yeah he is the shit i drink with him nah lol

 

lol...everyone has to have a drinking budy! haha

we went to a party last night and this chick i don't know got drunk and just took all of her cloths off and went swimmin and then i had to take a black kid to my house to stay because he was drunk as hell and then i had to go get the girl and take her home it was just great last night i tell ya

lol. glad you had fun! did you get drunk is the question tho?

no but i am tonight

 

why? u don't need to get drunk! lol.

i want to get drunk okkk lol

 

okkk! lol have fun!