IdiotBoy has me fucked up. Either that or PMS is really kicking my ass. He began emailing me today & it was non-stop all day. He wrote the most fucked up thing.... and he didn't even know it. He insinuated that he wish he was married. I could've flown to NY and killed him dead on the spot. I mean, what the fuck was that? We broke up because he didn't want kids and he didn't want to get married. He had commitment issues. What 3 yrs later and he's cured? The mind fucking has begun.
I want to know... what the fuck does he want? I mean, this is bullshit. He knows how I feel. Why is he doing this? Emailing me constantly throught the day like he doesn't have a job. What the fuck is going on?
To think is his way of saying..." I fucked up...I miss you" is a fucking dream. That'll be really fucked up this is just one big joke for him. I can't stand this shit. I can't tell him to stop. As much as I hate this, he makes me happy at work & then again he makes wish I never met his confused ass. You know, I don't think I've ever loved anyone as much as I love him. I haven't even seen this asshole in 3 years.
He was shocked that I told Mama I've been communicating with him. I told him exactly what she thinks. Mama thinks her Baby is Gorgeous, (I prefer Deady Sexy) & figures IdiotBoy is married or Gay. He got a big laugh out of that.
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