Seriously, I'm so fucking rockstar I forget to update this. I've put it off so, so, so many times.

Seriously.

In the time that has passed, school and As You Like It have ended. And pretty much since then, I've been out far too often.

Recap:

I had auditions for SDF on the night of March 23rd - for the three of the five (total) that I still hadn't tried out for.

That Friday (24th) brought early morning work, and then...well I did something in the Student Centre, so says my calendar. All that's left is a room and a time. No memory. Ha.

The 25th marked an all day rehearsal for As You Like It...hoo, boy.

Sunday (26th) brought about a shift with Julia - and a missed rehearsal! Yikes. Too many places to be at once...also matched by an all-nighter, frantically trying to complete assignments due the next day. I'm a student? What?

That night, though, was amazing and terrifying all at once. I received callback auditions for two plays...and they both wanted me to play lead roles. AND THEN THEY MADE ME PICK BETWEEN THEM, AAAH. For the rest of my life, I will be grateful that both were considering me so strongly. And to those that doubted me, when I began doubting myself around this time last year...there you go.

There you go.

I actually panicked so badly that I had to call Kohli, hahaha. It was the best idea, though, as she gave me the advice that I truly needed to hear.

I owe that woman for so much, so much...

I picked Miranda + Kyrsten's play, George F. Walker's Criminals In Love, in the role of Wineva. Ohhh I'm excited. :D

That Monday (27th) marked one of my last big assignments due - goodbye stress; good riddance! That night I had another As You Like It rehearsal...so longgg, oh man.

On the 28th, I worked all morning, and rehearsed all evening. Ah, acting.

That Wednesday was opening night, the first of four days in a row of shows every night - and one Saturday matinee. I picked up a book from the library that I reserved, for an essay that I got an extension on (my last assignment for that class). I missed Matty's birthday celebrations that night because I am a jerk.

Work work work, show show show. For the Friday night + Saturday matinee shows, I played my understudy role - a very barely dressed goddess, hah. It was awesome...for those two shows, in Act One, I played my role of Adam, the OLD, MALE servant, and then in Act Two, my understudy role of the very sparkly, very pink-slipdress-wearing goddess of marriage, mahaha. I got some huge compliments on playing an old man...considering I thought I sucked, man, such great words to hear. Such great words.

Following the show on March 31st, a few of us made a mad dash to the Theatre & Film Semi-Formal together...clearly awesome scheduling, yeesh. I wore my red corset and my mom's long black skirt - with my goddess hair + makeup + GLITTER still in full force, hah. So much fun. Rocking out to the Alan Braxe/Fred Falke remix + The Rapture was amazing, ahaha.

After our April 1st night show - closing show, of course - the McMaster Thespian Club officially closed for the year, with a cast party at Shane's house! I ambushed people with a can of whipped cream, mahaha.

...That night was also the first makeout bandit attack. Hah.

I was there until the wee hours of the morning...and then I had rep training bright and early the next morning, bah. I hit the snooze button too much, and jumped right out of bed in time for the last bus to get me there pretty much right at 9am. They got started late, thank goodness. Everything post-training and pre-work was hilarious, to say the least. Ahaha. I worked with Julia throughout the rest of the afternoon. That night Danny and I went out for a walk - he's gonna be an awesome cast member, it's so obvious already. I'm so excited!

My calendar has no more than a dash on April 3rd. That was totally the day I woke up with a giant estrogen punch to the gut, ugh. Then I wore my belt while napping with my heating pad on my belly, which resulted in a fucking BLISTER ON MY STOMACH. Worst. It's still in the process of healing, at that...gah. That day was also the first time I conversed with Dave online in like, years. It must've been about two years prior to that conversation. Crazy.

On April 4th I worked in the morning. That night, I stayed up all night writing my LAST ESSAY OF THIRD YEAR. Yesss. I am so sick of essays. So so very. That night was when I had to hand it in - the very last class of my third year, at that. Annnd I fell asleep during it, ahaha. :D Our prof bought a round for everyone, so awesome. I saw Josh for the first time in ages, it was crazy! After singing Hey Jude with Peter (BEST!) as it was karaoke night at the Phoenix, I managed to talk he and Josh into joining me at Absinthe. Josh bought me absinthe, even. Oh man, too much fun. However, I got drunk too fast and we left at like 12:15, hah. The walk and subsequent stop at Harvest Burger sobered me up, though, and I was fine by the time I got home. Thankfully, hah. Good times with those boys.

On the morning of April 6th, I worked. Bleh. Later that night I had a staff meeting, and then I had another outing to the Phoenix! Hah. I totally remember getting home late that night, and when I came in the front door, Whiskey came to greet me...and as he walked across the hardwood floor, he shook his body out - and proceeded to wipe out! Too cute and too hilarious, ahaha. Best. :)

That weekend marked four days of truly being a rockstar. Hah.

On Friday (7th), after work, I went to the Casbah...I definitely missed Tell The Divers...bah, I saw the Inflation Kills though (always good, and Phil is always hilarious, hah), and FROM FICTION again, finally, aaah! In a way, I'm glad I haven't seen them all this time...as awesome as it would've been to see them progress to where they are now, it completely overwhelmed me to see where there music has gone. It's crazy...ugh, they're so good. So gooddddddd.

Saturday (8th) I went to Absinthe. The Vapids opened, and were lovely. Cities In Dust played, and I made fun of Zach's boxers...Kevin definitely almost pulled his pants right off in front of everyone, hah. I asked him if it was laundry day. :P I also threw ice cubes at him, and kicked him when he fell on the ground in front of me. Hahaha. Sailboats Are White played next, and ohhh was Sex Drive Thieves ever SEXY. Good lord. Then Partytank! played and I poked some guy in the bum with a plastic sword, bahaha. Too much fun.

I kissed a cute boy named Matt that night. Haha.

The next day I worked, and then that night (9th), I met up with Carly at the GO Station...where I finally met my online friend, Mark! What a nice boy. We went to the Underground far too early. Met up with Marco, and we went to Hess to drink for a bit since the show was still ages away. He totally had Madonna on a mix he had made...too funny, ahaha. Didn't catch the first band's name, meh, they were kinda lame. We mostly watched Fantastic Planet on the TV above the bar, baha. The next band's name also escaped me, but they were nice. And then the Gris Gris...so crazy! I loved it. Watching Marco drive away with Madonna blaring is totally a memory for life, bahaha. Carly and Mark slept in my living room that night, and had to get up early. It was great to hangout them, though - and to finally meet Mark!

The next day (10th), I took Lisa out for lunch (she saved my ass a few days prior) to Affinity, a new vegetarian restaurant here - and it's actually mostly vegan. SO GOOD. Bigtime discounts, too. So so so good.

That night, after work, I managed to arrange for Lisa, Jen, and Jen's friend Tatiana to take the GO bus out to Toronto to see Jeff + Adam, a.k.a. FAMOUS PLAYER$, DJ the Yeah Yeah Yeahs afterparty. OH MY GOD SO MUCH FUN. Jeff fell down a full flight of stairs and our night ended in the hospital...hilarious photo ops ensued, after Jeff encouraged them of course, ahaha. He had to get staples in his eyebrow...what a ridiculous night. I am always going to remember holding his hand, while he was strapped to that stretcher, and how he said thank you. And how I said it was nothing.

I am so glad he is okay.

On the 11th, apparently while I was at work, Jeff stopped by my house. I wish I could've seen him. Sweet gesture, though. Awww. Smashyface!

Sometime late that night, after far too many free cans of Red Bull, I lost my solid silver band thumb ring, and my comedy/tragedy masks ring, somewhere in the depths of my room. I found the latter, but the former is STILL missing...bah.

I worked that night (12th), and the following morning. Then the night of the 13th brought about my first exam...and I did wonderfully, hah.

That night I couldn't sleep. Not sleeping ended up in an invite...and this girl got 5am makeouts, hah. So good. Ahaha.

The night of the 14th I went to the Casbah. Wyrd Visions opened...so pretty! Grizzly Bear played next, and OH LORDY were they ever overwhelming. Oh my. Then Final Fantasy played...always beautiful, my goodness.

The 15th brought about my second exam, and then that night I went home for the first time since CHRISTMAS. Michael is cheeky and knows that he is cute, hah. Diana is adorable and she was mostly hesitant of me, haha. Sososo cute.

We have furniture in my living room again! And a new television set! The room is no longer barren. Amazing.

I remember leaving my house that night, to meet up with Scott at Swazzee's, and seeing a "for sale" sign on my aunt's house, next door.

And so life goes.
The sidewalk felt smaller for a few moments.

I ran into Mandi at Swazzee's - I hadn't seen her since maybe Pumpkinfest, aside from VERY occasional on-campus run-ins. My goodness. She let me have some of her battered mushrooms, yummy. :)

Scott FINALLY showed up - and then there was some splitting off of group members. Anyway, Scott and I drank at the bar together for a while. Then he bought some pop to mix with the booze we had to pick up at his place - and a Colt too, hah. We shared it...so gross but totally hit the spot that night, ahaha. We walked to his house and I definitely used the washroom, hah. We walked through the dead town together, and I finally crossed Black Bridge for the first time in my life, ha...in the dark. Ahaha. I sang as loud as I could when we were on it. It felt amazing.

We got to Andrew's house, and I met a bunch of really nice girls that he goes to school with - that are from Simcoe, no less! I talked music with a couple of them. I shared my Grizzly Bear CD, and definitely exchanged e-mail addresses. Such a fun night.

I slept on the couch that night. Ohhh uncomfortable on the back, haha.

The next day (16th) we had Ukrainian Easter lunch...my mom is the best, as she got my own share of Easter borscht ready for me. :) Awww. She even sent a whole bunch home with me! Too good to me. Michael was a troublemaker that whole day, ahaha. God I love that friggin' kid.

I came back to Hamilton that night, and then sad things ensued...I ended up in McMaster's emerg supporting a friend. All I will say is that 7am is far too long of a wait for girls that arrive before midnight. Gosh.

So scary, so scary...

Jen asked me to take a shift that night (17th), effectively getting out of my shift the following morning to study. So good.

...It would've been even better if I would've studied, haha.

BUT.

You receive an offer to get paid three thousand dollars to direct and try to study! Haha!

So for this year's Welcome Week at McMaster, I'm directing the First Year Experience Office's IRIS production. Should be an awesome experience. :)

Anyway, I had an exam that night, and despite studying very barely, AGAIN, I totally felt confident leaving that exam behind. Bam.

The next day, Lauren McKinlay had arranged for a group of us to head out to Mandarin together for lunch...SUCH A GOOD IDEA. Unforgettable: the waiter who randomly came by with a spoon AT THE EXACT RIGHT TIME, the waiter that sang Happy Birthday (haha whoaaa), friggin' Rick getting dessert and such only to decide that he still wanted TERIYAKI CHICKEN (and had it served to him on the same plate bahaha)...oh man, good times all around. Friggin' gorgeous weather that day, too. So good.

That night I went to Absinthe...far earlier than EVERYONE else that said they were going, hah. I came ALL the way home, only to get a phone call shortly afterward from Miranda, telling me that it was packed and I should return...so I did, hah. Goddamn. It was great fun though!

The following day (20th) I had my second last exam...I had tried studying all day, I was so terrified I was going to fail it entirely. I didn't even know how to study for it - and you can't quite PRETEND to know film history, ugh. However...I finished it very early, and I totally did great on it, hah. I astound myself sometimes. That night I ended up on a random trip out to see Josh, Peter, John - and I met Rayna officially - at Snooty. Rayna left, and then the boys bought me a whole bunch of shots, haha. We ended up going for a walk, and playing in a park for a bit. Swings are my LIFE, oh man. We went to their house briefly, and then the 24-hour grocery store halfway between our houses! Hah. I got a bottle of strawberry milkshake, yum. Then they walked me home...gosh, such a fun night.

The following day (21st) I worked in the evening with Zach, and then went out to the Gown & Gavel, where Chris Ramelan had rented out the top floor for his birthday! SO MUCH FUN. I had another (brief) makeout hahaha. Nicole definitely made a stop at McDonald's for everyone she was driving home...man, meatless Big Macs really hit the spot when you're tanked, hahhh. I love liiife.

The next day I had to work 10-6, hah blehhhhhhh. I definitely napped after work...from like 6:30ish until maybe 11:30ish, oops...so I basically was nocturnal for a few days.

On the 23rd, I had planned to go to the Casbah to see A Northern Chorus, but at the very last minute, I decided to see some friends at karaoke at Snooty...and I ended up there the whole night! Haha. In honor of my last karaoke outing with Jeff, I followed his lead and sang Will Smith AHAHA SO GOOD. I was supposed to sing Champagne Supernova with Erik but he left early. :( Pooh. I got a lot of random compliments from strangers regarding my singing! [blush]

I was also a makeout bandit that night, mahaha. Aw, so cute. :)

I met a very nice boy named Ryan, and he and I ended up catching a ride over to the house of a boy named Ben. We caught a ride with a fellow that was bringing along a boozemelon, haha, ridiculous. (But so good...ahaha.) I met a girl named Angie and we totally got along instantly! Such a fun girl, awww. Foosball + random songs on acoustic guitars + singalongs + random kisses = fun night all around.

The next night (24th) brought about my last exam for the year...I had a choice between 50 multiple choice questions or an essay, and 3 hours to complete either one. And it was neat...I was terrified, again, because I really didn't even know what to expect for this exam...and as I was leaving my house, I looked down at the end of someone's driveway, several houses down from my house. Sitting right beside each other, on a bit of an angle from one another...two quarters.

Fifty cents. Fifty multiple choice questions.
Someone's looking out for me, I swear.

I finished the exam in about 20 minutes, hah.

The next day (25th) I worked in the morning, and had a meeting for IRIS shortly afterward. Michele gave me so much stuff to use! So good. She also gave me a bunch of rolls of Press 'N' Seal, hahaha...so random. This is going to be crazy and awesome and good, I can feel it.

That night I went to Laura Brinton's houseparty. I am NEVER going to forget how terrified I was, trying to hide the ass of a joint in my hand. GOOD LORDY.

The next morning (26th) was my first readthrough for Criminals In Love for SDF...thank goodness for awesome directors that call to get you out of bed, hah. There had to have been a power surge sometime that night/morning, because everything completely restarted in my room. WORST.

My mom came to visit me that day, and I took her out for lunch - to Affinity, hah. Donny was there, and I totally introduced him to her and chatted him up, after saying like only two words to him prior to seeing him there, bahaha. He seems nice though. My mom and I had such a great time together. I miss her so terribly.

That night I worked, and then went out to Snooty to meet up with Rachel...which then turned into a million reunions! Haha. After a while, I saw Matty outside, through the window. I thought, hm, I'm supposed to be going to his end-of-year/book burning party later, why is he here? He explained that firetrucks were called to his house ahaha! So, his party was no more.

After a short while, I had still planned to go to the Casbah to see Tell The Divers, so I did...so many places to be at onnnce, ahaha. I got there just at the end of one band's set, shortly before Tell The Divers was set to go up. Perfect. They're great - so talented! Gosh. Dave made some comment about how half of the band was definitely drunk, and I joked about how he was half of the band now. Hahaha. Oh man, I had planned to go back to Snooty but I'm glad I stayed to see Chris Yang...so terribly fucking talented and beautiful, my goodness.

I knocked over Dave's beer, haha.

Sad conversations turning into silly conversations; what an awesome end to that night, ahaha! These days are too much fun.

The next day (27th) I got out of bed late, got ready to go out...and still was late for my SOCS rep meeting somehow, bah. Hahaha. It was fun though - and I'm super glad I'm getting to know Mary, she's such an awesome lady. The trip out to Players with the rep team was great, and then Mary and I headed out to the Phoenix together for the get-together Ciara arranged. So many warm faces, fun times. I finally spent a bit of time with Monica, for the first time in so long...gosh I miss that girl! It's ridiculous how infrequently I get to hangout with her these days, pooh.

The next day (28th) I worked 2-9 (egh) and then went to Jamie's place for the surprise birthday party that his girlfriend had arranged for him. She's such an awesome lady, I'm so proud of Jamie for dating her! Haha. Hilarious times all around. I'm not sure when exactly that birthday-weed-brownie kicked in, but I'm sure the joints shared later that night after I left sure helped, hah! So yeah, I went to the Casbah later into the night, to watch Jackson get auctioned off to raise money for his baseball team. HILARIOUS. I was really just there to make sure he wasn't stuck at a crappy low bid, haha. Oh, boy auctions...

The next morning Darbygirl saved my bum and called me. So awesome of her. I worked...fuckin' all day, blah. 10am-6pm blows. That night, I slowly "got ready" (hah) and went to Lauren's place for her last big houseparty. Well, for a while, anyway. Oh man...I didn't want to bring booze with me, so I chugged back a whole bunch of Absinthe and then proceeded to RUN to the bus, bahaha. So drunk, so fast. And then Ryan shared gin with me, hah. Ridiculous.

Ben, who I had met at Snooty a week prior, saw me and LOST IT. Such an awesome guy! Ryan was glad to see me again too hahaha. I met a neat girl named Deja (yep) and she totally invited me to a houseparty in Toronto this weekend, haha random.

I'm so going, hah.

I got home after 3am, or something ridiculous like that. Shortly after that I struck up a conversation with Paul, and then told him to call me...several hours later I talked him into driving over for hangouts. He was here by like 9am, hahaha best.

I love my life, seriously, so much.

That night I went to karaoke at Snooty again. Erik showed up and I dedicated another round of Champagne Supernova to him, haha, awww. Deryk was there! So random. I also ran into Dave and Donny and I officially met their friend Pete, he's a nice boy, haha awww. I was also re-officially introduced to Darius, hahaha. Ridiculous times that night. So much fun.

Alright, May 1st...I definitely didn't wake up until 2pm, hahaha. I got ready for the day and went off to work 5-9. Matt picked me up after work and we went to see Silent Hill. I totally called it, too...as soon as I saw it I yelled out "THAT'S THE FORD PLANT!" and started giggling uncontrollably, bahaha. BEST. I did it later on, too, ahaha. Man, and the store signs they didn't change, and how they used that same street corner twice...I totally couldn't focus on the movie, bahaha. It was alright though - worth watching once, anyway! Ha.

May 2nd...well tonight's SDF meeting was cancelled since Monica couldn't make it back here, so I caught up on a bunch of things - even put away my laundry and such, gasp! - and then Lisa came over for to hangout before the show. We definitely made a trip to her house...effectively causing us to miss Joe + Ben's set, blargh. Next time. Oh man, we definitely saw Grizzly Bear though...so awesome to see them perform live again so soon! Ahhh so good. Dirty Projectors headlined, and they were nuts. Such sounds - such vocal tomfoolery, ahaha! So much fun.

...And now here I am, writing, trying to keep up.

This summer will be whirlwind and I don't know how I will keep up.

This upcoming weekend looks like it shall prove to be beyond amazing. I am excited.

I had too much I wanted to get done, so when I got in tonight, I had a can of Red Bull. Sometime partway through writing this, I had another, ha. I'll be awake until I work, at 10am. Then I have an IRIS meeting with Michele to follow. Then, I've got to call to reschedule an appointment that I missed AGAIN. And I should probably sign up for a summer school class or two...or at least make an appointment with someone to make sure I'm getting all the credits I need...

Hm.

Ah, life.

Good thing I'm a fucking rockstar. Hah.