so shanna and i wanna move out...we've looked at some places, and finally decided on this one in monroeville - i haven't seen it yet but shanna said its cute, plus, its cheap.  ok. so my parents are completely against me living in monroeville.  they think its too far away from home blah blah blah...personally, i just think they're having a rough time with the idea of me moving away in general.  but i feel like monroeville is perfect...its the same distance from both shannas house and mine, since we live in completely opposite directions - its close enough to school - shanna can have her car - the food won't suck - and there are TONS of job opportunities.  i honestly don't see any problem with it.  but basically, im doing what i want bc im 20 years old.

anyhowwwwww we sign the papers and turn in our application for this place tomorrow. exciting right? NOT. i find out today that we signed a contract that says we will live in the dorms for the full year. not only is that bullshit..but how are they going to trap us in here, when we're paying them to live here? i dont get it.

this sucks. hard core. all i wanna do is cry right now bc i dont know what im going to do if the director of student life says that "we can't move out."  i can't talk to my parents about it bc then they will just throw back the "i told you so bullshit - you shouldn't move out" it fucking sucks. i honestly want to do nothing but cry. it seems as if everything goes soooo well along the lines of this apt business, and then something just happens to fuck it all up. i can't live at home bc then ill fail college. but i guess if it comes down to it, thats where im gunna be. and im going to be miserable.  i  hate living at school - the food sucks, its hot, and both shanna and crystal are def moving out - so im not living by myself.  i can't pay for living in the dorms & rent at the same time...its just not possible at all. so i dont know what to do...this situation blows.

hopefully the director of student life sees things our way - but she probably wont...but i guess thats just how things go. you guys will have lots of miserable blogs to look forward to - so get excited.