Allright. I just finished my last test for today. I bombed them horribly. I’m so upset with myself. The worst thing is that I have two more on Thursday. These are the hard ones I’m actually worried about. It’s starting to get annoying how everyone who sees me tells me I need to get more sleep. Even the Colonial said it today.
Here is the worst part. I have to discipline a cadet tomorrow. He’s a good guy and I don’t want to but he didn’t do what he knew he was supposed to. The person I told to make sure he got it done didn’t make him do it so I have to discipline him to. Now this means that I obviously screwed up somewhere along the way by not making it apparent that I was serious and needed him to get the job done so I’m taking whatever punishment they get as well. I feel like an asshole.
All this though is not even the weirdest thing. The weirdest thing is that I can’t stop thinking about this girl. I walk out of that test tonight and I know that I should be pissed and try and go blow off steam. In stead all I can think about is getting back to my computer to look at her picture on my background. I go to get food but rush back to see if she’s back. It’s like I’m on crack! Like seriously, I need to focus on my work but I’d rather talk to her any day any time. Not the hopeless romantic way but like that very addictive video game you just can’t put down but twice as cool.
Do you know that feeling where you think you like what you have until someone else describes how great it is and you go back and realize you scored hard core? That’s the feeling I got the other day talking with a friend. It just made me really appreciate how cool this chick really is and how much I value about her thoughts and opinions.
Well getting back to studying… I’m just counting down the days until I can see her again. It’s going to be sweet. I’m ready to knock out these last two tests and this last project. See you on the other side of bliss… Oh yes it’s worth it…
bliss
