I had to do the hardest thing Sunday. I had to leave her at the train station knowing that it would be a while before I could get to see her again… I know that we’ve been dating for only a short amount of time and I shouldn’t be this attached but I am. So sue me. We’re only going to be separated for about two and a half weeks which is nothing unless you consider the length of time we’ve been dating then it’s a huge break. But, that is not the worst part.
The worst part is that I have grown so accustom to her. At night when I lye in bed with her asleep on my chest or her smile when I look. I miss how every meal was special and how every little road trip is an adventure! I don’t get to wake up next to someone anymore and life just doesn’t seem as exciting. These are just my feeling not a life choice so all you “so childish” people go fuck yourselves. I’m being realistic.
I can’t wait till she is here and we can spend time together again. I know she worries about her future and me in it or whether she’ll change. I mean, hey its life and shit happens, people change. Come on, no one knows who they are, and those who think they do are stuck up pricks. You can not make decisions on things in life if you haven’t experienced. Make choice when you have to and don’t shut any doors you don’t want to open. I’ve got a big door open in front of me and as life takes me through I’m going to enjoy every moment. Even the moments where all I can do is wait…
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