We embrace the ending

I dont know what to think or what to believe anymore. I have been feeling so sad lately and just plain confused. Last week was just better than this week. I had no worries about anything last week and now this week it seems like everything that didnt happen last week is happening this week. This sucks and I really hate it here. One of these days Im gonna disappear and nobody is gonna know where I went or what happened to me. My friends arent  really there for me and they actually are making me more angry. Why do I feel like this??