I got the following from someone at work and I was waiting for an opportunity to share it with you.  I think the fear of failure is probably normal, not that it makes it any easier to experience.  The thing is, hon, your journey to peace and healing is your own and no one can tell you what the right things to do are.  Sure, there are healthy choices to make rather than unhealthy ones, but really, your healing journey is your own.  There is no time frame to it, sweetie.  Anyway, the following site has a really neat perspective on healing that might help you look at things differently.  Maybe not, who knows, but it made sense in my head.  I haven't looked at the rest of the site, just the page that I'm sharing with you, so I don't know if there's anything else that might be helpful.

 

http://theemergencesite.com/Tech/TechIssues-Healing-Spirals.htm

Keep searching for that peace, it's within you....it's just gotten buried under all the shit people have dumped on you!  But it's there!!!!!  And you WILL find it........I know this!!!