angerMy blog has gotten decidedly more personal in the past few weeks. I do talk about a lot of mindlessness, but I have also talked a bunch about familial problems. I didn't intend for this to be a poor me type of thing; I'm not looking for sympathy at all. I have been dealing with this situation since I have been conscious of the fact that my father was worthless to me, which has been some time now. As a result, I know how to handle and cope with this shit pretty well. It does make me sad, sometimes bringing in floods of emotions that I can't hold back, be it anger or tears. I just thought I'd explain it here, as it kind of gives you an idea of why sometimes the mood in my posts travels from upbeat to miserable, as the entire situation is boiling over at this very minute.
I may or may not have been fired this afternoon, for essentially no reason at all. This may not seem weird to those of you who do not know me, given the economic situation out there. I am, however, employed by my father. He called me up at 4 pm ish. He was drunk, espousing about how I had hurt him, and that it was killing him. This all stems back from a lack of a long distance invite to my wedding that I posted on earlier. Let me clarify that in that post, I was not admitting to being at fault, only to the fact that I should have anticipated the fallout better than I had, and prevented the bullshit drama that ensued. Well maybe it is better off that I haven't. My absolute dream would be to once and for all have nothing to do with the man. For as long as I have had this blog, I have wrote about my disdain for this man. I only stick around because it is a scary proposition to be out there in the world without a solid job with a family counting on you. I had to leave eventually, and in his drunken stupor, my father told me he wanted me out, because I disrespected his family, and that is all he has. This was touching to hear from the man, other than the fact that I knew the entire sentiment to be bullshit on his behalf. He is as anti family-oriented as you could possibly be. He has seen one of his brothers and his sister roughly a dozen times this century. He is as little a father as you could get, and if money were removed from the equation, he would be no father at all. I despise the man, and if I really am being pushed out by him, and i will find out for sure tomorrow morning, I won't look back in his direction ever again. He threatened to not come to the wedding. I asked that he please be a man of his word and not make thinly veiled threats.
It is 1:16 am. He has tried to contact me since the initial drunken calls but I put the phone on silent. Tomorrow morning I go to work, and I wonder if he will remember what he said in his state of inebriation. I hope he does. I'm ready to be done with this guy for the rest of my life. And if the rest of my life starts tomorrow, that would be a huge relief.
I may or may not have been fired this afternoon, for essentially no reason at all. This may not seem weird to those of you who do not know me, given the economic situation out there. I am, however, employed by my father. He called me up at 4 pm ish. He was drunk, espousing about how I had hurt him, and that it was killing him. This all stems back from a lack of a long distance invite to my wedding that I posted on earlier. Let me clarify that in that post, I was not admitting to being at fault, only to the fact that I should have anticipated the fallout better than I had, and prevented the bullshit drama that ensued. Well maybe it is better off that I haven't. My absolute dream would be to once and for all have nothing to do with the man. For as long as I have had this blog, I have wrote about my disdain for this man. I only stick around because it is a scary proposition to be out there in the world without a solid job with a family counting on you. I had to leave eventually, and in his drunken stupor, my father told me he wanted me out, because I disrespected his family, and that is all he has. This was touching to hear from the man, other than the fact that I knew the entire sentiment to be bullshit on his behalf. He is as anti family-oriented as you could possibly be. He has seen one of his brothers and his sister roughly a dozen times this century. He is as little a father as you could get, and if money were removed from the equation, he would be no father at all. I despise the man, and if I really am being pushed out by him, and i will find out for sure tomorrow morning, I won't look back in his direction ever again. He threatened to not come to the wedding. I asked that he please be a man of his word and not make thinly veiled threats.
It is 1:16 am. He has tried to contact me since the initial drunken calls but I put the phone on silent. Tomorrow morning I go to work, and I wonder if he will remember what he said in his state of inebriation. I hope he does. I'm ready to be done with this guy for the rest of my life. And if the rest of my life starts tomorrow, that would be a huge relief.
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