It seems to me that I have a problem with making bad situations out of nothing or making things worse than they ought to be.  I do it all the time, and it is pretty irresponsible now that I am on the verge of marriage and have a child to take care of.  I can’t afford to keep making stupid mistakes; I’m not a student or a kid anymore.  It is getting old.  I’ve created awkward situation after awkward situation regarding this wedding and my side of the guest list.  I was told time and time again to get it straight who I needed to invite, and I did the opposite.  Well, for a day that should be about celebration, the anticipation is littered with potholes.  Lindsay has had to deal with a lot of the crap from this as well, and I apologize to her for that a thousand times.  I need to not rush into things and quit being lazy.  I need to be a better person, plain and simple.  Just getting by does not work anymore; mediocrity is a step away from failure.  I really let myself down sometimes.