Here I am lying to myself once again saying "everything is alright" when inside I'm so torn up...nobody can see it. Everyone is to wrapped up in themselves..and I don't blame them..they have every right to be. I try to ask whats wrong and I get some rude remark. I have so many ppl being bitches to me....that it breaks me down. I wonder what'd happen if I wore my real face one day..how would everyone react? Oh, like it was nothing. They'd just say I was being mean that day..when I'm not...when I'm so hurt....so sick...so tired...I just don't want to live!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It makes me so fucking mad when I wake up...I hate it. I hate being here. I hate all of this. I hate wanting to cry.....I hate crying and not telling anyone that I did. I hate being hurt. I hate how my life gets so bad that I can't see a great future. Use to...I had everything in line...I was secure..now I'm so insecure and gone for humanity that I can't even breath.

If there was a bridge I wouldn't wait a second to jump. I have friends....but they don't talk to me about my issues..and I don't want to talk to them about it because I look like a big ass baby and I'm not one. I have to keep it together... I have to pretend like nothings wrong and have to act like its not okay for me to cry because it really isn't.

If I cry tonight, maybe I'll sleep in 2nd block because my head will hurt like hell.

*sigh* I love adam..............................
 
   

 


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lsicardo on
Re: Waste of Life
Do exactly what I say.   Get a blue pen and some paper.  I'll wait.

good.  Now write on a single line:

Adam's stupid, I'm a cupid.

and repeat.  How long?  Until you cry, get bored, and eventually laugh hysterically and wipe your tears.

 

If you are REALLY ready to die and you're not just being dramatic, you shouldn't be afraid of anything.  Not even writing an embarassing poem with your face beside it.


So post your picture here, down a bottle of red wine, browse for "Poems" and write something that shows how little you give a shit about life and waking up. (mind you not a poem ABOUT how little you care about life)  be creative, not depressing.    Be bold and lead yourself.  You're waiting for someone to take your hand and tell you what to do... so I'm doing it.    Until you're ready to be bold and lead yourself, I'll keep doing it...

 

Shawn. 

bluelace on
Re: Waste of Life
every thing seems harder when you love someone and you lie awake at night and the only thought in your head is how there seems to be no possible way that they could ever love in that way back, that that person is the only person that's keeping you together and they down even know it, so tell him, if that seems to hard then at least try and be freinds with him with out the constant struggle of "does he like no of course he doesn't" everything in life becomes easier, trust me. if people want to hide its because their scared of what you think of them they want to sort out there own problems with out any one finding out, who knows maybe they posted their own blog on here, like you.
niggah8a on
Re: Waste of Life
yes yu are a waste off life yu depressive fuck calm down and cheer up!!!!!!! yu sad bastard
bleeditout on
Re: Waste of Life
i'm not gunna sit here and tell you typical things youve probably heard over and over again like...don't worry everything'll b alrite but he's the only thing you can possibly do

tell him....and THEN..if things don't get any better....fuck him...you shouldnt be wasting your time caring about someone who doesn't give a shit...

 

 

blobella on
Re: Waste of Life
Hey. Suicide seems great when you think about it, but my my best friend in the world commited suicide, and my ex boyfriend threatened to. Its a horrible feeling. I feel like it sometimes, as though there isnt anything to live for, but i bet someday when i'm all wrinkly i'll look back and be glad i didnt. You might feel the same way someday

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