The night I didn't....

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brandybear

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Tonight, my neighbor Jocelyn came over. She sat on my couch and told me her boyfriend was next door shooting coke.

Tonight, we sat, together on my couch and we didn't get high.

Tonight we talked about all of the bad times, not all of the good ones.

Tonight we chain smoked and fidgeted and craved, and talked through it all.

Tonight we shared all of our secrets with eachother.

Tonight I looked at her, and saw myself.

Tonight I felt the need, I felt my stomach flutter and my heart speed up with want, again.

Tonight I sat through all of this, and I didn't get high.

Tonight I won.

I'll deal with tomorrow when it comes....

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callie69 on

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Interesting prose, i hope your life isn't this troubled..kisses, Callie

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HAUNTEDWHISPER on

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I liked this entry. I don't really know what to say, but I thought I should comment nonetheless.

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brandybear on

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Thanks. Most people wouldn't.... I think it's just to much for them.

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tragicbeauty05 on

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I'm another person that doesn't really know what to say.

But just take everything a day at a time.

Sometimes even though those long talks on your couch hurt, they're just good for the soul in their own little way. They kind of empower you to make it through another day.

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brandybear on

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Thanks

It did help. I didn't realize she was as far gone as I was. Now I have someone who knows exactly how I feel. That and a ridiculous amount of candy. (It helps)

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tragicbeauty05 on

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yeah... candy is a big help...

and just knowing that someone can relate to you... no matter how hard life is, it's good to know that someone, somewhere, understands and can relate to everything you're feeling...

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brandybear on

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Very few people can., but I'm getting the impression you do. Thank you

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tragicbeauty05 on

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you're welcome...

i try to understand & help as much as i can...

it sounds like you've been through a lot

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brandybear on

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you learn from everything you do. I never regret anything I do. It makes me who I am.

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tragicbeauty05 on

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That's exactly the way I am.

it may hurt for a little while, but there's no point in regretting it, because you can't take it back... all you can do is learn from it all...

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brandybear on

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That's how I see it. Most people waste so much time on regret. I can't understand why because had you never made all those mistakes, you'd be a different person.

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tragicbeauty05 on

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yeah.. mistakes may hurt you, and they may cause you pain, but no matter how much time you sit around wishing you didn't do it, it doesn't change the fact that you did.

all you have to do is keep your head up, and learn from those mistakes, because they make you a better person in the end.