Once upon a time lived a girl who though that nothing could save her.

In the end she saved herself.


I was watching Oprah today, (yes I know, daytime t.v. is for people with too much time on their hands) and there was a woman on the episode who begged Oprah to help her get off drugs.

Today at work, a regular told me about the fact she was attending narcotics anonymous.

Why do things like this make me angry? Why do I feel like they're taking credit where credit isn't due? Why do I believe that they're weak?

Every night I dream of getting high. Every time I hear it mentioned, I miss it. But I didn't fall to my knees and request help from perfect strangers. Or really anyone for that matter.

I woke up one day and decided to get my life together. I decided to save my life, instead of lose it to a feeling. But why am I so angry at those who can't do it on their own?

 
   

 


 
 
justbrowsing on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
Excellent q's as always, Miss Bear, and once again, I suspect, largely rhetorical...  So why do you think it angers you?  I'm actually curious.
brandybear on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
I guess its because I did it all on my own. I have to listen to people whine over their own failures and their fucked up lives. Never once did I whine about it or feel sorry for myself. I woke up one day and decided to do something about it. I'm not really angry, I just needed to vent.
oscarcrumb on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
Because they don't deserve it as much as you do. But, they're satisfaction is less. By leaning on another to help them, it leaves them weak in the long run.
WOOKIEBANTER on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
I think its kind of narrow minded to think that when someone needs help to overcome an addiction  they are weak. Thats total bullshit most of the worlds greatest peple have had help to overcome oversities does that make them weak as well. some poeple need help or assiatance because they have tried it on their own and faild.  (brandy youve tried to quit this shit before and hav gone right back to it so dont get too mad at  that people who need help )  fact is people feed off of each other . for example  think f it as peer pressure.  it gets to almost anyone after awhile but the pressure going the opposite would be great if  people  could consantly encourage you to not smoke the joint or not  shoot  up. and to have people to share their experiences   with and together learn from them..   and the biggest part of learning from mistakes is not doing them again. 
erinbear on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
you're really fucking impressive sometimes dennis
anglund on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
Maybe you feel jealous--that there is someone to help them and you feel this burden you bear has been cast upon you and you alone...? Because you might feel unworthy of help? Some folks are just able. They're able to do what needs to be done when it needs doing. Others are not. 
nanilynn on
Re: Drugs and daytime television
Ok now for Myself i am as strong minded as you are one day i decided to quit my drug of choice only now i dont miss it when it is mentioned i can be around ppl who smoke it in their own their home and still not even want it but my mother isnt as strong as i am and hasnt been able to quit but to this day she regrets that she can't do it on her own or with help. the process of her quitting on her cost her her family all of her kids were seperated and only 2 were adopted out to a good home so i thought and 1 of them werent me or my brother i turned to them to calm me down and deal with my issues of abandonment but now i have an 8 year old baby boy who needs me and not the issues i guess my point is we have hope for our futures other ppl may not see it as strongly as we did when we decided that morning.


 
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