i love me some marilyn manson when i can't sleep...that's the reason for the title of this entry.
new layout, you diggs?
so shawna and i have decided to really buckle down and do this whole baby thing.
in april, we went to the fertility clinic and got her tests done, whatnot...$3000 worth of testing...only $600 has to be paid by us, the rest was surprisingly covered by her insurance...wow.
so anyway, she has high testosterone levels and high bad cholesterol, so we have to get her prescriptions to take care of the high T count before she can get pregnant...T kills sperm in women.
we wrestled for a long time over what sort of baby we want (besides a healthy one, that is). As far as ethnicity, Shawna looks like the most Aryan person I have ever met...it's like she is a classic German woman...
Shawna is 5'9" with naturally blonde hair, medium caucasian skin-tone (she tans really golden and pretty) and big sapphire eyes. I want a baby that looks exactly like her, i just want it to have my last name (5 bucks: name the movie reference).
and as you know, I'm definitely not too white, but not too anything else, myself. I mean, I have certain black and certain hispanic attributes, but i was raised by a white family...so i'm basically a white boy, lol.
neither of our parents (her mom/stepdad or my folks) want us to have a "mixed baby". but shawna does, because she a) thinks mixed origin babies are beautiful and b)wants it to look like me at least marginally. but it's going to cost $800 just to find and ship ONE sample of little swimmers from a clinic where we can choose the donor based on looks. it's about $300+ cheaper to go Aryan and take the clinic that has all blonde/blue eyed donors.
i've finally decided that i don't care if our babies look like me or not, i just want healthy, happy and somewhat well-adjusted babies, you know?
it's a bigger deal for us to have more than one...
and speaking of that: shawna has to take fertility drugs at least a month before we get pregnant. um...a normal woman without said drugs has a 1% chance of twins...on the drugs puts her at 8%.
Yikes!!!
but she's cool with it, she was multiples. I told her 2 is okay, 3 is a stretch...and any more than 4 and i will personally murder her uterus following delivery. lolz!
i mean, jesus christ (pardon my catholic...lol, i'm not a bit catholic), i loves me some rugrats as much as the next man...but fuck...one thing at a time, please!!!
and another NOT VERY COMFORTING thing...at the clinic, the good Doc has plenty of pics around of babies he has helped conceive...and guess what? Yeah, the majority of those pics involves 2 or more infants on the same birthday...same family. jesus.
what am i getting myself into? lol.
and chyeah, i totally couldn't sleep, in case you couldn't tell.
commentz muh new layout, puhlease??? *pouty eyes*
more later, i'm sure.
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