One thing about the way pot affects me is it doesn't "make" me say things I normally don't think, but it, "makes" me say things I normally want to say, and it "makes" me mean about things I normally try to be nice about. For example, on Sunday morning when I was still kinda drunk/stoned, I was talking to Stuart on an entry from like the day before or something about the whole drug problem thing, and I thought I pissed him off cuz I was a little meaner about it than I normally am. If I did, I'm sorry (like he'll read this anyway- see? there I go again), but that's an example. Another example is the one time my ex and I smoked pot together. It gave me the courage to finally stand up to him...and then he started hitting me...but if you haven't read about that on here yet, I can tell that story some other time. There's also someone else on here who, uh, well, she's a good kid, she just has some beliefs that I believe to be completely unethical and she probably won't even read this because she's mad at me. I tried my damnedest to not tell her that I don't know how she can live with herself or sleep at night, and just now I basically did, which is why I also don't usually respond to my inbox when I'm stoned. The thing is, I know once I'm sober a part of me will feel good that I was able to get these things off my chest. I've stated that these are all beliefs and opinions, and shit, we've all got them, and I'm not blocking anybody so you all have the right to come and deffend yourselves...though i wasn't really talking about anyone except for myself...but yeah. See damn it, this is why I usally don't come on here when I'm high, lol. stupidness.
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