n i forgot to mention earlier that i had another dream w/ that boy in it last night. i don't know how that stupid boy does it to me n how he keeps doing it to me. there was a bunch of stuff goin on in my dream last night, but the part w/ him involved me sitting down talkin to him n i guess he was single n i kept holding his hand n shit while i was talkin to him n lookin up into his eyes n all that, n it was weird cuz i could see that i was making him feel uncomfortable even tho he kept that little smile on his face that i've seen in reality so many times before n even tho i knew i kept doin it in the hopes that he would suddenly like me like i like him, but in the end he got up n walked away. (oh yeah, now i remember- i'd taken a bike n ridden it perfectly n i told him about some other stuff n then that n asked him if he was proud cuz i've told him before that i can't ride a bike. it turned out to belong to Rivers i-dun-remember-his-last-name from Weezer :P) he still had that little smile on his face, tho. n once again his hair was short like it is now. i dunno what that means if n e thing. i just wanted to post all that.