with like everything in my life right now. and i'm really short tempered and i feel the inclinition to ignore certain things because i'm worried that i might snap and make a mistake or say something that i don't mean because i'm very stressed out right now. there are so many things going on in my head, i don't even know where to begin in terms of writing about them. i'm stressed out because of school, i'm stressed out trying to find new room mates, i'm stressed out over this stupid situation with albert, the fact that i don't really have any one to hang out with other than reanna n she makes me feel like shit, i'm stressed that i haven't lost the weight i was supposed to lose by May, and i'm stressed cuz stuart needs to take a fucking chill pill. no, i haven't read ur replies yet cuz i'm pissed off about enough things in life right now that i don't need to lose my temper over something that's not a big fucking deal. I've told u, when u call, its bad fucking timing. i'm SORRY that i take my studies seriously, i'm SORRY that i want to graduate in four years so i decided to take four classes this semester, i'm SORRY that i want to get into grad school so i'm doing work in a professor's lab. i'm SORRY that i don't have time for you! but guess what? anna n jeanie can tell u that i don't have time for them, either. the last time i talked to anna on the phone was last week cuz i had 20 mins to kill before my next class, n the last time i talked her and jeanie before that was a couple weeks ago. i don't even have time to call emo jimmy n the one time that i did he didn't answer. if u can't fucking wait until school is over to talk to me n u can't be fucking understanding of the fact that i have a lot of shit going on, then fuck off. i'm fucking sorry. i've got three more damn weeks n if it weren't for the fact that i'm already stressed out n pissed off about 12 other things, this wouldn't even be that big of a deal. the only reason i'm still updating on here is because i need some place where i can vent my fucking feelings BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TIME TO TALK TO THE PEOPLE I NORMALLY WOULD GET THIS SHIT OUT TO!!
oh, let's not forget my fucking financial issues...mike STILL won't pay me the bill money he owes me, we finally got how much gas $ we owe for ppl for WPA, but the rooms still aren't figured out n the reimbersments aren't figured out yet, either. I HAVE A FUCKING BUDGET! i'm sorry my parents don't just fucking hand me money n i have to work for shit n bust my ass to save up money so i don't starve or end up on the street cuz i can't afford my rent!
i hate everything right now.
college
