the one in my last post, the one where i saw raver Jimmy? (if it wasn't clear that's who i was talking about) well i also posted that on myspace...and carly responded...TWICE! i have two messages in my inbox from her n i'm scared as shit to open them. right now i actually need to try to catch the bus cuz i have to be somewhere, but shit...of all the things i could want but never thought would happen, her saying anything to me about him is right at the bottom of the list. and now i'm scared to see what she said, if anything. it might just be a sentence calling me a crazy slut or it might be something more than that. at least i'll finally be closing this part of this chapter of my life, or at least i'm making the effort to in trying to talk to her. if she doesn't want to talk to me then i'll make sure to put it in a suicide note or something, but hopefully i'll be able to answer some questions.
dreams
