drama
i leave to print that paper and on my way see Jon. it was weird cuz i was going down the hill, look across the little valley to the other hill, and there he was walking down a trail! so we talked for a bit and that was chill. Stuart called me while i was talking to him so i didn't answer and i figured i'd call him back once i was done with all this other stuff. I went to the library, printed out my financial aid thing, walked into town, and checked out the apartment. i guess one was rented, but there was another available now, one that was gonna open like next week, and another that was gonna open up in two weeks. honestly, it wasn't that bad. it did have some stains, but nothing i wouldn't mind trying to clean up. and its SO CLOSE to campus! as of right now i'd rather be there than in a townhouse out in the middle of nowhere, which i tried to find and had no luck. :( at least i got a lot of exercise, haha. oh man, tomorrow is gonna suck! my fucking shins and shit are feeling so tired already.
it was cool, though, cuz on the way back to campus i heard someone call my name. i was like, "wtf?" and i looked into a window and it was Wendy! her room is NICE! its her in a house with a bunch of people with the circus or something, and the room is really big. like, i'd love to have that room, lol. so i hung out with her a bit and we just kinda talked and caught up. she mopped the floor in the bathroom and her room and we chilled a bit, then she had to get ready for a meeting and was gonna go eat lunch with one of our LGAs from last year. (Amanda. she was really chill, not at all like our LGA) i came back here cuz i still had three more things to do.
when i got here i ate a bunch of grapes because i was thirsty and i like grapes, but one fell on the floor. i picked it up and when i went to throw it outside, the people living across from me opened their door to talk to a couple people outside, and it was Gabe! omg! he lives across from me! lol. small world. well, then again this is arcata...and i really shouldn't be surprised that he would be taking summer classes....but still, lol. it made me really happy to see him, and it always does, cuz i gotta be honest- he reminds me A LOT of J. they look similar, their voices sound similar, they way they talk. and it didn't help that when I saw Gabe he was wearing beads, lol. damn it. its weird because i am really physically attracted to Gabe, but i know its only because he reminds me so much of J. not that he's not a cool guy. we'd talk about family guy and all that during or after NORML meetings. we didn't have a chance to talk, but maybe we can hang out some other time this week.
i called the Emma Center and they have me down for seeing the chiropractor in October cuz its the soonest they could get me in, so in September or so they're gonna give me a call as far as making the appointment and such. I asked them for my therapist's number cuz i thought i had it, but i guess its in a box somewhere and so after that i called her and left her a message. then i called the realitor again a couple times, and once again after several tries someone finally answered the phone! the appointment for tomorrow is a go. i texted kim and she's gonna give me a ride there after work. i'm so super excited. i told her i saw the g st apt and we were joking about the carpet, lol. good times. but yeah, earlier the realitor told us that they wanted to make their decision about those places either today or tomorrow, so hopefully we'll make a good impression and it'll work out! :D
so now...i checked my yahoo for the first time since like, friday, and Stuart apparently sent me an e-mail yesterday apologizing for the way he was saturday night/sunday morning. i don't know why i didn't think to check my e-mail, i guess i just figured he'd come on mindsay or call me, haha. so now i feel bad about saying i hadn't heard from him when really i hadn't checked my e-mail. then again, according to yahoo he sent it after 6:00pm, and even on eastern time that's 3:00pm and i pushed the publish button at 12:24pm. anyway, he said he called up and told his gf the next day, that him and one of his friends "were on so many chemicals that I think we actually went a step or two down the evolutionary ladder," and that some funny things did happen that he wanted to share with me, but he felt shy about calling after the way he acted. all this i could understand, but lastly he asked, "Oh, and if you wouldn't mind not blogging about that, I would appriciate it." My response?
"sorry i didn't get this sooner cuz i'm sure you saw that i already did, and to be honest, i don't feel like going back and deleting it. you put me in a tough situation and i'm not going to let myself feel responsible for your actions and your choices. many times i have been respectful and not blogged about the things we talked about while you were high, but this affected me too deeply to not say something about. i saw that you called today and i didn't answer cuz i was talking to someone else that i saw and since then i've been running errands, so its not anything personal. i was gonna call you back once i finally got some housing stuff straightened out and figured i'd check my e-mail because i hadn't for a couple of days. thanx for apologizing and i'm glad you told angela what went on. what were you on other than those three hits of acid?"
that's the e-mail i typed back to him and that's all i have to say on that. i'm gonna go chill with Ted for a bit now cuz he just called me, but i'll be back later to tell you more about the rest of my day, and maybe more about last night, lol. i don't think anyone cares to hear about me being stoned off of my ass though, so i dunno. later.
