i've got a job here and I might be getting a second one, I have an interview thursday. if I get both jobs i can potentially make $4,000-$6,000 this summer depending on taxes. i'm hoping this will allow me to have enough saved up after I study abroad in the fall that i can come see you again next year.

i've been busy with school, was looking for scholarships for a while n just got so burnt out that i stopped. i know that's hella bad cuz i need the money, but that's life.

i'm almost done with this semester so i can make an effort to talk to u more often. i kno that doesn't change your availability but i really miss talking to u n i'm wonderin what's goin on in ur life n if things have gotten better.

might be going into a phD program next year or i might take a year off. n i'm gonna have a roommate again for the summer, so i'm kinda worried about that. i've LOVED living by myself!! I know that this is one of those "you of all people" sort of things, but its so much better to be alone. I don't make friends so i'm not getting fucked over and even tho i get lonely its worth it. I hope that someday you too can reach a point in ur life where you realize being alone isn't so bad.

of course, who knows if this crap will still hold if i'm in a relationship again...i've realized that my problem is when i'm single i'm very alone n independent, but when i'm in a relationship i completely lose myself in it and that person. unfortunately the only way to work on that is by dating again, n i still have no interest in being with a man in anyway that isn't platonic or sexual.

so yeah, that's the update on my boring life. i wish u lived closer so u could take care of my cat while i'm in Prague, i know you'd love each other :P