J: hey, so about tonight, since the last time I have started seeing someone, and I'd be up for still talking to you and everything, and maybe if things don't work out with the girl we can do something, but I am not one to cheat on n e one, so gonna go have to go for a no tonight

.......

 

fuzzycookie1: its cool
J: all right, thx
fuzzycookie1: so ur like dating someone now?
J: ya
fuzzycookie1: its cool. i'd been meaning to ask you if you were seeing anybody else

......

 

fuzzycookie1: so were you seeing anyone else while you were seeing me? (i'm just curious)
J: no, this happened over the week and weekend since
fuzzycookie1: k
fuzzycookie1: does she go to hsu too?
J: sorry, but not me to lead on peeps, so figured I'd tell u now rather than tell u I am busy and blah
J: no
J: shall we talk about somethin' else?
fuzzycookie1: haha, k
fuzzycookie1: well thank you for being honest. i appreciate it
J: mhmm
fuzzycookie1: i'm not like mad or anything if it makes you feel better
fuzzycookie1: we had just had a casual thing so its cool

 

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Anna: so whats ben up?
fuzzycookie1: well
fuzzycookie1: i just found out (as in a couple minutes ago) that my favorite fuck buddy now has a girlfriend :(
Anna: awwwwww
fuzzycookie1: so i'm trying not to lose it cuz that's a dumb thing to los eit over
fuzzycookie1: yeah
Anna: no its not
Anna: dont ever say your feelings are stupid again
fuzzycookie1: well, i can't make any promises but i'll try
fuzzycookie1: this really sux, though
fuzzycookie1: and i'm kinda jealous. i mean, we could never date because we're too different, but still
Anna: no matter how little it is your feelings always matter and never be sorry for that zak  always made me feel like shit b/c of my feelings and he always said they wre wrong and i relized that your feelings are important b/c thast what makes you you and you should never feel they are stupid or dont matter or anything like that
Anna: i always care about your feelings and they'll never be little or stupid to me b/c i love you hunny
fuzzycookie1: awwww
fuzzycookie1: i love you too
fuzzycookie1: and see? there's one reason why right here :)
Anna: your my beat friend and youv ben the greatest friend to me i couldt wish fro someone better

 

so maybe i kinda lied to him about how i feel...god i feel so fucking embarassed and stupid right now....damn...

 
   

 


 
 
kashfi on
Re: Looks Like I Can Start Cutting Again...
hey you!

how is everything? 

blackmamba on
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um, not so good....well, not now...that's kinda what this entry is about...but i have a job now, so that's good...
hereruraisins29 on
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wow man that sucks.  if it makes you feel any better, i'm not getting any either................  and anna's right, your feelings are never stupid.  feel better man
blackmamba on
Re: Looks Like I Can Start Cutting Again...
thanx. as much as you guys say that i still feel like they are and i feel stupid for feeling this way. this is just silly.
hereruraisins29 on
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yeah i know, i get the same way.  and it sucks.  keep ur head up
blackmamba on
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thanx. i'm trying, but i know you know that that's a lot easier said than done.
hereruraisins29 on
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yeah you're right

meangirl20 on
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Aww that sucks that J got a gf when he could've had an awesome girl like you instead. I'm sorry hun. 
blackmamba on
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its ok. its like i told anna, i know that nothing could work between us because i think that we're too different.
meangirl20 on
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aww thats a shame though....
blackmamba on
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yeah. i posted a new entry about that and some other stuff that's been going on earlier today, though.
meangirl20 on
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yay. i'll read now
blackmamba on
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cool, thanx
meangirl20 on
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no problem
cexcitten on
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I'm sorry that really sucks.

blackmamba on
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yeah it does, but i wrote a new entry about how i'm feeling now. i'm trying not to think about it and just move on.
foreverjustice on
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sounds like you got attatched in the process and didn't realize it.  Im sorry.  I honestly dont know what that is like because i have never been with anyone other than Trav.  Its hard for me to understand casual sex - and not have any emotions afterwards.  

Im sorry that you are hurting. 

 

blackmamba on
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i know. i didn't realize it until we left school. this is the second time this has happened to me. i talked about it more in the entry that i posted after this one and i posted a song I wrote on selfncreativity. the next day i felt like i was over it and I'd moved on, but the more i try not to think about it, the more little things make me think of him. i feel so helpless. i at least want to be better friends, but if that was meant to happen it would have by now.

 
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