"why does this still bother me?!"
i don't get it, its been a couple of months, n even last night i was thinking that i don't give a fuck anymore, but then some shit happens n i realize that i do. i really fucking do and i don't want to anymore! well i guess i can think of some of the reasons...like i'm jealous i don't have that with somebody, or i'm upset because i know she could do better. i see the pics of them so happy together, n yet i wonder if she knows he fucked me not even a full two days before the two of them got together, not to mention he'd failed to mention anything about her to me before-hand...n yet, why do i care when even she's caused me so much pain? I DON'T FUCKING GET IT!
i hate this bullshit.
n what's really sad is that she probably isn't gonna see this, n even if she does, she probably still won't think its about him cuz she's too "in love" to see what a cold-hearted fucker she's gotten herself stuck with.
fucked. up.
(this part was just on facebook): but i guess i'll save them the embarassment by not tagging them in this note...
angry
