he's going to turn shit around. especially after he starts reading this blog from the beginning like he said he wants to, once he gets the chance to be alone. he's gonna read about all the hurt i've experienced, and then he's gonna realize, really realize, how much he's fucked up. he's gonna see what apparently only i can see, how the way cyn has been acting has caused me to react and my reactions to her actions are why i've been acting the way that i have been. he's going to go to her and tell her he can't stand her for all she's done and he's going to leave her. not only that, but he's going to go to matt, jacob, morgan, and everyone else that i once considered friends and he's gonna set the record straight. he's going to tell them the truth, clear my name, and tell them all how much of this was her. he's going to turn them against her the way they've turned them against me. its going to be just like the end of
Secretary- he's going to see all the suffering and sacrifice i've put myself thro for him and he's going to turn around and take care of me. and no, shit won't be perfect, (how can she say i have no friends cuz i want ppl to be perfect even anna's not perfect and she's still my best friend why is it so much to ask just to be honest we have such an incredible connection i just wanted to be friends i know he's not perfect but as long as i could trust him it was ok), but we'll love each other and work thro things n maybe it won't last forever, but that's ok, because at least we would have given things a shot, (he'll just go back to her n she'll just take him back), and that's what matters. and once everyone is against her the way they're against me, they'll understand why he left her for me and why he loves me and why i'm worth it. I. AM. WORTH. IT. and they won't tell him it was a mistake because they'll see who she really is and see that she was the one who was manipulative, she was the one who had nothing but empty threats, that she fucked up our friendship and actively tried, not that i tried to fuck up their marriage which was fucked to begin with, they just hid it really well from everyone else but once they let me in they couldn't hide it from me anymore. he'll see that he was wrong, he'll see that she's not the one for him, he'll see how she pushed us both to become what we are now.
yeah right. now i'm gonna drink/cry myself to sleep. reanna got me out of the house for a bit, so that was nice. i'm glad that SOMEBODY believes me...cuz this isn't the first time that i was called a liar for speaking the truth, not the first time i was invalidated at every turn. this really is like getting raped again. its happened again...
fantasy
