Time has passed and now i'm feeling a lot better about all that crap. I'm not sure why i didn't think i would when i pretty much always do. Now, i'm not over it. I'm not feeling perfectly ok, but I am feeling better. I had a dream that we like had sex or something n then talked about his gf afterwards, only he didn't cheat on her w/ me? yeah, it makes no sense, n then i saw him walking around later when i was hanging out w/ someone, (i think it was emo Jimmy) n Kendra was like leaning on him n she had her arm around him n stuff. i wish i could have a real conversation w/ him like i did in the dream, tho. it wasn't like i was interogating him, it was like when u have a friend in the relationship n u just talk about it. i do have to admit i was hoping to see him this morning when i walked to school, (i'm here early cuz i have HELLA shit to print n i need to update n print my resume!), n it was just another case of be careful what u wish for, cuz i did see him...driving by me in his car towards his place. haha. i'm planning on going back to that cafe Mosgo's tonight to work on stuff so if he's online i'll probably tease him about it, haha. i thought it was his car, then it thought i saw him wave, n i was like, "wtf? that is J!" but he was really just rubbing his eyes, haha. with his pj top on that i've taken off of him a few times before...lol. at least the time i didn't spend sleeping i got to spent listening to the rain...n i'm sure shit's gonna be bad cuz even tho i dumped the garbage last night i forgot to take it to the street...yeah. but now i have some shit i really need to work on before i have to go to my 10:00am class. (*dies*) at least im doing ok.
n i know i should be glad i did get to see him one more time, but i didn't get to give him head on Sunday...lol. as soon as i saw him cumming on me i was kinda like, "aaawwwwwww...." inside n i told myself i should have asked him to move his body up n i could have moved down n he could have jizzed in my mouth...lol, oh well.
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