*bashing head on wall*

why.the.fuck.did.i.give.Scott.my.phone.number?stupid.stupid.stupid.stupid. I really hope he can't find a room for tonight. That and I'm glad Phoenix came up with the fake name idea. i've been telling the guys that i'm potentially seeing for money that my name is Alexis, that is, if they ask for my name. but.why.the.hell.did.i.give.him.my.number?that.is.so.stupid.i.hope.he.doesn't.call.me.stupid.stupid.stupid.stupid. I'm really not into this sex for money thing anymore, and it has nothing to do with the drama that's been going on this week, it's just that some of these guys are assholes and they're not paying me nearly enough to treat me the way they do. Scott's only paying me $50, and as pushy as he is, I don't want to see him for less that $100, but sure enough, because i still don't have the strength to tell a guy that i'm not interested in that i'm not interested in him. Fucking disorder. In the past when i rejected some one....well, you know....i know that wouldn't happen in this situation, but my fear gets the best of me. Ack, he called back. I guess i'll update you on how it was when I get back. If you have my number, please call me at 7:30 so i can get out of there! thanx!