Advice, PLEASE (Sorry It's Long, but I'd Appreciate It!)

I know that not a lot of you read mindshock (Stuart)'s blog, and I know that it was a few months ago when I first wrote a little entry concerning his...um, increased usages of marijuana. Now, I know that you all know that I smoke weed, but at the most I've been doing it once a week since the first weekend in February and that's it. Moderation is alright, but when it gets out of hand...problems occur. I've been watching it steadily increase and I've been too scared to say anything to him about it because I've had A LOT of people in my life with drug problems, and every time I've tried to intervien, they cut me out of their lives or try to bring me down with them. (Hence one of several reasons why the video for "Scars" by Papa Roach is on my wiki page.) However, after the empowering experience that I had on Thursday, (as told in "My Big Step Vol. 1," "My Big Step Vol. 2," and "My Big Step Vol. 3"), I can say I'm not afraid anymore. He told me that today he was going to be "rolling, flipping, tripping, and buzzing, all at once," which by his definitions that's probably X, LSD, pot, and alcohol, and during sometime yesterday, I realized that I wasn't afraid to say something anymore. I don't mind talking to him on the phone when he's on something. It's actually a lot of fun. It's just....well, most of it will be explained as follows. He had a bad night last night, which he can share the details of if he'd like to, and supposedly he's quitting for good now. I was going through his blog and was wondering if maybe I missed any entries Thursday because I wasn't here for most of the day, and then at night I was stoned watching Family Guy, and I found this entry. I read it, and took my time trying to write a nice, but firm reply. Here is what i said:

 

"fuck, how did i miss this and the entry before it? did you do any of the coke with them? is that what one of the drugs you said you were gonna do this weekend was? anyway, i know you quit, but:

 

Yes. You are/were in a loop and you don't know it. I know you said you quit, but remember what I told you months ago? That you shouldn't do it more than once a week? And now look at you- you get pissed everytime your dealer stops selling. You took LSD again when you said you wouldn't ever again. You were going to take it again this weekend along with god knows how many other drugs. You're grades are suffering, and the two times now that you've been really into girls that you were going to talk to, you just gave up. I've noticed that the more you've been using, you've become less of sweet, understanding, romantic guy you used to be. It's changing your personality. Normally, I do a lot more than I have with you. Normally when I see people forming a drug habit, I do my damnedest to point it out to them and show them what they're doing to themselves, and that they should do they drugs they do and all the reasons why. But with you, I didn't. Why? Because you're just like everyone else- The few times I've said something about it, you kept saying you didn't have a problem. There was no problem. You are in denial, and it's put me in the possition of either losing a friend because he doesn't want to be helped, or just sitting back and watching him be consumed by something he hated so dearly as little as a year ago. Am I a bad person for choosing the later? Should I have said more things to you and tried to talk to you?

 

Also, just so you know, if what happened to you last night hadn't happened, and if I still hadn't seen this or the entry before it, I was probably going to write an entry that pretty much said everything that I just said to you tomorrow. I know I maybe should have said something sooner rather than just vent it all out, but two days ago I had the most empowering experience of my life and I'm not afraid of much of anything anymore. I'm not afraid to tell you that you have a drug problem, and I'm not afraid to lose you as a friend if you're not willing to believe me, and I'm not afraid to tell you that I don't believe you that you're quitting for good. Why? Because you said you were going to when you made the deal with that girl. You said you would never do LSD again. I don't believe it, and iIm scared that now that I've told you all of this, if you use again you're not going to tell me because you won't want me to know that I was right. But like I said, I'm not afraid anymore, and everything I'm telling you I'm telling you for your own good. (God, how parentish did that sound?) Moderation is fine, talking to you when you're trippin on every drug in the world is fine, that's not what bothers me. The fact that you don't do that in moderation is, and the fact that I've watched your drug habits snowball into something bigger and bigger is. I really hope you're not too hurt by this and I hope you don't cut me out of your life like so many people have because I've told them almost exactly what I've told you just now. You really are a great person. You're just in denial."

 

I guess my question is...did I just do the right thing? I know that may sound silly, but a part of me really doesn't know. I'm almost certain he's just gonna tell me off when he reads that and write some hateful entry or maybe even just delete his blog and all that, but was i wrong to write that? Did I just make a really huge mistake? oh, if you can answer some of the questions that I asked him in that reply, that would be a big help, too. Thank you.