i've got so much on my mind and no one to talk to about it. i hate this. i hate this because i feel so alone and when i feel alone like this i do stupid things and go to people i shouldn't go to just in the hopes that i can merely feel something that i need but won't ever have there. I don't know what to do with myself. i hate the internet. i find places, forums where i feel like its safe to be me and then something gives and it turns out i'm not accepted there. and of course matters are made worse cuz, no matter how emo it sounds, i honest to god feel like no one understands me except for Anna and she's three fucking time zones away dealing with her own bullshit. i'm so angry and lonely i can't sleep. at least i didn't get close to anyone so this doesn't hurt as badly. Catch 22- if i'm alone i feel lost in a void but then again no one can make the problem worse. fuck my life. this happened here, too.
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