haha

cyn lost her wallet. i was sitting in my 6:00pm class n i was taking notes on something, n then i looked up n saw her turning around in the doorway. naturally i wondered, "wtf?" she came back in like 2 minutes later n said she'd lost her wallet in the room last night somewhere around 8:00pm. after some looking around no one could find it, so our instructor told her to check the geography department office or UPD. i almost wished i'd found it so i could burn it. part of me feels bad after getting that picture message, but at the same time, her sad = me :D. i really hope she never finds it. then i'd feel a lot better about never finding my USB drive last year, too. i know, that doesn't really make any sense, but i guess its because then i'd know someone that shit happened to, too.

then of course, i started wondering if albert had been with her because he didn't come by at all yesterday, or at least not as of like 10:00pm. he told me when i saw him on monday that he only comes by here when cyn is not around, which i do appreciate, and its hard for him to read it when he is alone because their friend chris from back in fresno is living with them now. he did tell me, tho, that chris really doesn't care, (when chris first came up here albert said he didn't want to get involved in anyway), n yes, i know albert also has other things to do with his time, such as homework, but he's NEVER been very studious and really i think the reason why it gets to me n i somewhat obsess over it, (i surprisingly have been able to block it out fairly well for now), is because the fact that its no big deal to him that he didn't come by for a day is no big deal to him, because it shows me that he's a lot more over this than i am and that he doesn't care about me as much as i care about him. then again, he also just might be better at blocking that shit out, but i guess it would be a little easier if i still had friends n a partner, too, even if my partner was a little cunt n i said i'd never forgive her for letting me get close to someone the way she let him get close to me only to force me to break up with them only to jump back in bed with them not even a full month later.

but anyway, mike is watching something w/ two of his friends downstairs n they have the volume up so loud that is shaking the floor, so i'm gonna tell them to turn it down n relax. i've been sick all day. :(