2600

i guess its time i make an entry, might as well be #2600, lol. there's a lot of things i want to say so i'm not sure where to begin. i guess the obvious is that my computer is up n running again. unfortunately i lost EVERYTHING on it, tho- lost my sims, lost all my pictures including one of me holding a cup of my grandma's ashes, n all of microsoft office. (yeah, this thing didn't come w/ it) hopefully i have not lost my music, tho, because i had it on a back up hard drive. if i end up losing it all i might have to kill myself, tho. a lot of that music i only have on my iPod, n that dumb thing doesn't let u take music off of it. i understand why its made that way, but its still frustrating as hell if u've, i dunno, lost all ur music!!

 

but lets see, what else...i've started playing D&D. i know that's extremely geeky, but my parents used to play it when they were dating n my brother plays it now, so i kinda figured it was time for me to get on the bandwagon, huh? lol. n i have to admit, it is kinda weird, to say the least. its not like a group of friends that i'm playing w/, its like a club n they get REALLY into the role-playing aspect. its like improv again, except that its a character that u stick w/, n improv was never my strong point in acting. i didn't do it this last friday tho cuz i went to earthdance, which is a whole other entry for a whole other time n i'll explain what that is n how awesome it was. (i know that i've mentioned it on there both last year n the year before, but i don't remember how far i explained it. n of course, all the explanations u hear are worthless once u actually go n see it for urself) i hope they're not too mad, but i have a feeling they might be cuz they take the game really seriously.

 

also, sean n i might start seeing each other again. i'm not sure if n e of u remember who that is, but he's one of two seans i've hooked up with n yes, i'm talking about the second one, the one that i actually fucked n has a huge cock. (this thing is seriously like 7 1/2 inches long, no lie) we only saw each other once, at the end of my freshman year cuz then he graduated n went back to Santa Rosa or wherever it is he's from for like a year. apparently he's back up here n he let me know cuz he wants to have sex again. no, sex w/ him wasn't that great but it wasn't bad either, n since he's the only guy i've ever had sex with that's really big i want to explore more with that. besides, i haven't had sex since June n the last person it was with is Jimmy, so i deffinately need to hook up w/ someone else, haha. i was hoping i could start hooking up w/ Rob on a regular basis this semester for various reasons, one of which being that he's also really big n since i'm curious i want to experiment more with that, as i just said, but also because we didn't actually have sex last time n damn, what a tease! lol.

 

in all seriousness, tho, i called him (finally) last week to see if he was going to earthdance so i could get a ride...n it turns out he got into a car crash n broke his spine on the first day of school. yeah. he's spending the semester recovering in SF, where he was born n raised, n he'll be back next semester. it made me really depressed not cuz now i don't get to see him, but because that fucking sux! everything about that sux to say the least. he said he can still walk n stuff, but that's still so aweful. i still feel really bad n me being me i wanna try to cheer him up or something, but i'm sure it would just annoy the piss out of him, lol. this really is a curse, the way i feel for ppl n my desire to make them happy. i'm trying to let that go in some ways, tho, because as n e one who reads this thing knows, it never gets me n e where. :(

 

lastly before i leave to go to a psyc club meeting on campus...damn, i forgot. sorry, my cat Puma was doing something so i paid attention to him for a bit n i totally lost my train of thought...oh yeah! reanna was nice enough to get Quentin Tarantino's Death Proof for me yesterday when i was in class (for u other grindhouse fans, i agree that its super lame that Death Proof n Planet Terror are being released seperately, but again i do understand why they're doing it.) n the uncut version makes sooo much sense! yes, i liked the movie before, but i like it a lot more now. i thought about telling Rob about it cuz u get to see the lap dance, too, but then i realized he might not wanna see a movie where ppl get fucked up in cars yet...heh. but then again who knows?