i'm having a problem with anxiety right now. i don't want to get all emo, but all i ever do is listen to other people's problems. i'm fine with it usually but lately i've just been having all these emotions of my own and i can never talk to anyone about them and i never get time alone hardly to just think. today i was with my friend and my crush and we went to a park and i just wanted to go chill by myself on the swings. i was fine there for awhile but then i started shaking really bad and breathing hard and almost crying and i felt like i was gunna puke. then, to make it worse, the guy i like snuck up on me and saw me like that. he asked what was wrong but i don't want to say anything because i don't want him to think i'm messed up and complicated. he gave me a hug, though, and i felt better for awhile. i really want to be with him because he makes me feel so good about everything. i like listening but talking about myself always feels awkward to me. i feel like crying right now. i don't even want to say all my real problems on here, it's just such bad stuff and everyone will judge me. i need to talk to my friends in person but they're always busy.
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