like all my screaming has gone unheard

alright, so i'm in a pissy mood right now. i don't feel like doing anything. i think i need time to myself. i'm pissed at life already and it's about to get worse. the day i've been dreading pretty much all summer: brian, my brother, is coming home from jail tomorrow. i've gotten so use to having him be gone that i'm freaking out. he sent me a letter awhile back saying that he would change his ways and that he's sorry for never getting to know me, but i don't know what to believe. he's given me so much shit over the years and there have been many times that he's said he'd change, but he never has. even my mom, the one he's hurt the most, is believing him. but i know he'll still be an asshole, no matter how hard he tries. he makes it so hard to believe him when he says shit like he wants to change. it's his own damn fault i can't believe him.