well, i was dumped yesterday. after 3 months of going out (by far my longest relationship) and giving this guy all i could bear to give, he ended it. we went to the river and he said we make better friends than lovers. whatever, he's just been ignoring me and avoiding me. this is a terrible feeling, i've never gone through this before. i'm not so depressed that i'll kill myself or something cuz, hey it's just a guy, but i need this to stop. when i try to sleep, i think of falling asleep in his arms. i feel too vulnerable. it was terrible enough having him be busy all the time and me never getting to see him, but now when i see him i don't know how it's gunna be.
throughout our relationship, he'd told me that he loved me every time i saw him. i could never say it back. i really felt it, but it's too scary to say. now i just want to call him and tell him how much i love him but i'd hate to be "one of those girls" and try to fix everything after it's too late.
he's just a guy, i keep telling myself.
this always fucking happens. i can never have a happy, healthy, normal relationship.
he's just a fucking guy. there's millions more...
and that's why i hate myself for crying over this one.
dumped
