Wow. long time no write. Haha. so newest news is basically me and Liz both have Brady's in our lives. when she told me she saw him again it made me laugh so hard. how funny would that be if she ended up with him. hmm lets see. Liv and Brady. Liz and Brady. muahaha. the fun we could all have together.
I miss my Liz so much!
hopefully my mom decides to stop being a bitch so i can have her come over my house soon for some more goood times. i love sleepovers with her. shes the best.
hmm everything in my life has changed. its mostly better but then again a lot of things got worse. im just trying to stay positive because i got my biggest wish in life. i got the love of my life back and thats more than i could ever ask for, and certainly more than i deserve. it feels so good being with him. because it just fits. everyone else i was with, it didnt fit, it felt wrong, i wanted out. with him, i just cant get enough. and i cant take my mind off of him. ever. being in love is wonderful. yesss it is.
So guess what? im bipolar, and manic depressive. which liz said is basically the same thing. my mom failed to tell me the results of my psychoanalysis from this psychiatrist who came in and interviewed me when i was in the hospital. well she just wanted to wait to tell me when i became "more stable"
my mom told me today that she knows that im still throwing up everything i eat. i denied it ofcourse. but who the hell am i kidding? shes not oblivious anymore. well. actually she still is. but much less than she used to be. i dont know how she found out? owell doesnt matter. she wont stop me. its a good feeling.
lesson of the story: Olivia is crazy and now shes getting on bigger and better medication for my problems. muahaha.
I also got my anxiety medication upped. however since i havent been getting home at night until after my parents are asleep they forget to leave it out and ive stayed up all night biting my nails and kind of having an anxiety attack. which are very interesting when youre drunk i must say.
Wow. this entry makes me sound really messed up. and unhappy. but really right now i cant complain. even though i am. i shoulldnt be. i should be the happiest ive ever been. and when im with him i am.
Me and Austin arent friends anymore. and i couldnt be happier. what a disease to my life. my mind. and my self esteem. its like freeeeeeeeeeeeeeedom without him.
enough said.
actually no not enough said. ill explain what happend. hmm im gonna count all the times hes SCREWED me over. theres a lot of times.
1. my parents found out about my ED because of him.
2. my parents found out i was doing cocaine because of HIM
3. he lied to his mom and told her that i did ecstacy on new years last year and told my mom.
Theres plenty of more times hes screwed me over. but those are the big ones. i think he did the coke and ecstacy thing to try to keep me away from brady. WELL TOO BAD FOR HIM it didnt work. my mom loves brady. and so do i. so goodbye to you.
Trust is for fuckers anyways.
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