job situation is settling down, even though I'm still VERY UPSET over the whole Jose thing (which I never blogged about and wont because it'll further anger me) but I'm trying to forgive and forget that 2 of my close co-workers have been backstabbing me. I cant get too upset because it'll affect my job performance and they arent going to change, so I'm just going to try to deal with it.

school is boring x_x at least at PBA I met a few people who I was friends with and could hang out with after classes but here there's no one. and part of it is my fault since I've become so anti-social in that I hate giving people a chance because I'm almost certain that they're going to dissappoint me. or some have a beautiful mind but they'd rather play dumb and run with the crowd. and sometimes you just simply dont click with people. but also, there's not as much friendliness here as there is it PBA. but in a way I didnt like that there because half of it was fake Christian crap with that whole feeling like you have to be nice to people. I'm so sick of fake people. where are the real people? do they exist? am I fake in a sense? I don't know x_x

and romance, HAH forget it. no one looks at me >_> which I'm kind of ok with because I dont have to obsess over my appearance because I already know to a degree what people think of me.

haha my glasses are so emo.

there's no one even remotely fun to "people watch" right now. how sad is that? everyone and everything is so boring. this is partially why I must dye my hair again. when a customer sees my hair, their whole faces (typically) light up. It's nice to have a change from the ordinary. even better is that I have pink hair, but I'm not all "gothed out". Its a non-threatening conversation starter.

ok so this wasnt quite so random, but I'm really just doing this to take up time.

I mean writing my thoughts is certainly better than sitting on myspace for an hour looking at random people who arent even my real friends. it makes me sad that the real ones dont care and that they choose to ignore me when I need help. many times people like to sort of brush online friends as unimportant. like they are worth less simply because you cant hop in your car and see them in person. but being a part of mindsay has been such a wonderful experience for me. I can imagine where I'd be right now without you guys! I mean mindsay is better than any therapy!

I have spoken with thefatcouple and causticveracity recently on the phone. Mommy (thefatcouple) was wonderful! she sounded exactly as I had thought she would! she's insanely funny, and very intelligent. I felt bad that I had to hang up since I had to go to work/had to majorly pee xD but I feel like I could tell her anything and she wouldnt judge me. I hope one day I'll have the privelege of seeing her >_< and as for mr. causticveracity he has a nice voice ^_^ which I did get to preview in his ode to godess kring, but it was more enjoyable on the phone. I dont remember much of what I said because I was a mixture of hyper/tired (wierd, I know!) but thats where the whole harem of formerly fat women thing came from.

again, boring post, I know, but whatever! haha if I get no comments I wont be sad. at least mindsay is her to relieve bordeom!

~Angel