Cuz, I love you. I'm sorry you can't reach your idea of "perfect" for yourself right now. I used to have similar problems, but I had to learn that instead of making perfection my goal, I had to make what I can handle and what's plausable my goal and that's something that's a lot easier to handle.

I love you and if you ever need anything, let me know.

I try to rationalize it, and I know the truth, but my feelings refuse to change. I mean, I'm glad I have you guys, it makes things a little less painful, but I dunno I just keep crashing. and its always the same, I'll crash, become really awesome, and then be destroyed and worse off than I was before. and sometimes nothing even happens to really trigger it. Like someone put an emotional time bomb inside me or something. The world could be beautiful and amazing outside and then my brain and heart just decide to die inside. I keep hoping that i get better, and then I get better, and then I fall apart again.

 

anyhoo, thanks for your support. <3 you

I know what you mean, my darling. If there's anything I can do to help, even if it's just listen or whatever, let me know.

I made a new installment of the golf shop diaries, maybe it will make you laugh a little bit.

I love you LOTS, Cuz.

You are perfect when you're happy with yourself.  It shouldn't be the other way around ... you shouldn't feel you'll be happy when you're perfect.

*hug*

thanks <3 and I mean I know that, it's just not that easy.

 

your reply does mean alot to me though

nothing's ever as easy to do as it is to say.  but positive thinking does have some value to it. 

 

sure thing =)

just think about where you think it changed the most sweetie -hugs-

*hugs* i hope you feel better

What the fuck. Get out of my head.

I think those EXACT. SAME. THINGS.

great minds think alike? :-p

Hahaha! Anthony just said that to me this morning!

 

But really, it's called: mental illness. I'm the Queen.

do I get to be the princess?

Hells yes! And together we shall rule the NEUROTIC KINGDOM!