Alexithymia

I always slouch to get to your level
and I sleep next to the phone
when I left Carmen with the devil
I always expected to be alone
but you broke another ice scraper
when you heard my funeral dirge
will I turn into water vapor
when you disappear to purge?
now, commence the pacing
I guess I'm freaking out a bit
you can't call yourself a fatass
if I can't call myself a piece of shit

I want you to know
I love you more
than I can ever show, baby

and I don't care if you were married sixteen times
...
I still love you

don't you find it funny
neither of us knew the word
to stop the car just to catch the bunny
to elucidate the absurd
the inability
to verbally describe
one's own emotions
except in painful diatribes
you really think that I'll regret?
baby, I never have and I never will
love hasn't begun to seep in yet
the feeling is captivating still

I want you to feel
that warmth in your heart
a love that ya know is real, baby

and I don't care if your were married sixteen times
...
I still love you