Rambling

I've had a lot of time to think lately, what with being unemployed and all. And lately I'm kind wondering if this welding career is really right for me. Ok, so it's not much of a career yet and I've only had one welding job with only limited success so giving up this early might not be considered wise.
But the thing is my brother just graduated for college and it's made me realize two things.
The first thing is that fact that I have seemingly over night gotten old and have wasted so much of my life and am really behind the 8 ball because of the countless mistakes I've made. The second is that I am the only one of my siblings (excluding the youngest, Maria, who has Down's Syndrome) who won't have a college degree. Sure, as a welder I won't really need one unless I teach it professionally (and I'm not sure o I'll even need one for that).
I don't know what I'm really trying to say. I guess my point is that I've been thinking about my life alot and feel like I have missed out.

Mark