Do I go to the Varsity practice tomorrow... Or do I go to the math meet in which the teacher was relying on me to go and it is the last of the season...

I told coach about it and she said, "Do you want to be on Varsity or not?"

I said, "Yeah..."

"Then you better be here."

Grr, she's not even going to be there, and I HATE missing practices but they are expecting me to be there, and I would be on A team finally and just dfklgskfldjgshgsfjkdgh.

Not fair.  Not fair at all.

I don't even know what I should do.  Like I don't want to let Dear Bethy down, but I don't want to let the whole math team down either.  And I want Varsity, but I also want to improve my math grade because I can add the points I earn to my grade-thing and I also want to go to that because I want to show I'm dedicated.  I wasn't able to go to a bunch of other ones before and now when the really need me... I'm told I can't go.  But then I want to still demonstrate I'm just as dedicated, or even then some, as any other girl on the tennis team.

What happens when you want to be dedicated in two things but you are forced to pick one over the other?  Which one do you pick?  Obviously the one that is most important to you... But I don't even know...

All the drama people got to miss the practices before and just because they aren't going to miss it tomorrow means that no one else can miss this one either?

What the F.

Bah - I just don't know what I should choose.

I love tennis, I love math... :-\

Maybe if God loves me, he will make it rain.