There was a web site set up to update us all on Crystal's progress, and we wold leave messages there in the gurst book.  I am currantly making a scrap book of the journal and guest book entries for my sister.  I had to sort the entries for the day she died, the ones before she died and the ones after she died.  I just read all the entries form that day.  I've copied the entries of my two oldest children. Their pain is nearly unbearable for me.

My dear baby girl, I love you so much. I never thought I would have to say goodbye. I don't know how to say it either. I didn't get to see you a lot but you meant so much to me. Being your oldest girl cousin I feel I need to be there to talk to you about boys, school, life, and everything else. Now I will never get the chance to do that. From lack of spending time with you I don't know that much about you but the one thing I do know is that you were always a fighter. With everything that you went through you always stayed with us. Now your rest.

Cindy and Cliff- Just remember Life is Beautiful. She might not of had the best life being in the hospital but she was a beautiful child and I love her so much. I will miss you forever and always.

Your loving cousin Stephie

Dear Crystal,

I don't know how to say goodbye. You never made sense to me. I never had the chance to be your friend. All I wanted was to be there when you had your first school play, or piano recital, or basketball game. I just wanted to do the things, an oldest cuzin is supposed to do. But that was not to be. I never had the chance, just like you never had the chance, to get to know me. I'm sorry I couldn't have been there for you more often, even though you might not understand, I very much wanted to be. Now, I will never get to see you smile again. I'm going to miss you.

Love, Cuzin Gus.

I weep for my sisters loss, I weep for the loss of this tiny life, and I weep for the grief of my children...........