Couldn't find the real video to this since universal is being kind of a douche about it, it 's not like we make money off of you tube you know. But anyways mom's already making things worse don't know what her problem is, I've been taking care of myself just once when I don't have a job she gives me all this bullsh*t. And it's not like I haven't been without a job before, things are just a bit tighter because of school, not like she cares though already trying to get me to get another job, that's what I'm trying to avoid. Jumping into that crap again and working myself to death. She only pays attention to herself from what I've seen only cooks for herself only thinks only of herself. So I have this crap list to do tomorrow and I still have to go to the school tomorrow and demand to know everything and why it's taking so long. And dad's not back in town still in Jamaica so no money funds anywhere so I'll have to look up grants for the first time. Of course mom suggested this, because she never wants to use her own money. Oh and I'm the one who's paid for ALL my college, dad only paid the first while I haven't borrowed a single dime from him for school. So I don't she what she's complaining about nothing she's never done. Just cause you letting me stay in this house, still owe me more than half my childhood of being divorced and only coming to two event of my entire school career. Wasn't there when me and dad werre helping Brian get through college so I have no idea what she's thinking. I'm starting not to really care, if I'm that worthless I'll just live on the street and die there's almost no point in moaning over it. If things don't want to go the right way then must mean it wasn't suppose to in the first place. Here's my craptacular song writing with music by the Roots.

 

 

 

Life when things fall apart

 

from even the very start,

 

stabbing out my own heart.

 

As it goes drops off charts.

 

Was I even ever smart?

 

Mom keeps leaving feelings of nasty remarks.

 

Seeing that my car stays parked.

 

Has me seriously crazy marked

 

Being blown apart

 

As she lets out her badass bark

 

How has everything gotten so dark?

 

It's not even night

 

Please hurry up get bright

 

Everything is becoming so trite

 

Losing every single drop of might

 

Even going crazy in my mind

 

Being left behind

 

Trying running with all my life

 

 
   

 


 
 
darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
when you can afford to--just get outta there
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yeah I hear that, the only thing I regret and dont regret is growing up fast enough, it's been a huge double edge sword, wasn't really big on growing up fast like other kids but now I' such a late bloomer that things haven't gotten off very well. I'm just hoping I'm over exxgratting a crap load just need to calm down and focus on something then mom. When she made this list for a yard work, it was already stuff I had in mind a while back. Wish I would have beaten her to would have shut her up, oh well.
darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
patience with another can be a two-way street..just like that sword
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yeah, I've been waiting for a while so I guess I'll keep working on that, got that from dad. Even with things blowing up as it does I always do calm down, I think it's just been a very very very long time since I've been put in a corner like this though ^_^;;
darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
doing work and school is REALLY tough, but when you're done..you'll have the satisfaction knowing that you did it yourself
I did it that way..that's why I can't eat tunafish any more--LOL
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
lol well that makes more sense now haha ^_^;;
darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yeah..too much tuna or baloney sandwiches..
but it got me through college
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
did you gain or lose weight off of that diet? haha ^_^;;
darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
lets just say that I was at my skinniest in school
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
lol I'll have to keep that in mind, kind something to look forward too ^_^;;
darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yup
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
hey rory,

 

FIRST: YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS

 

second: i'm so proud of you for being in school and figuring out ways to pay for it yourself that's awesome.

 

your mom has her own demons to contend with. don't feel bad because of her or even try to figure her out....

 

whenever you feel low you should definitely come to mindsay and talk to friends....we love you

Belle

MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
wow... I wasn't expecting this at all from you. Probably the youngest person on here, but what you just said was pretty quite CLEAR. I'm really happy that you found this place, sometimes we all forget and there's still some type of hope. Thanks for the smile and the thoughts hun -hugs-
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
*gives you big bear hug*

 

there is hope and there is prayer

MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yep keep those heavily in mind when you think of me will ya ^_~ haha, cause too much trouble for my own good and for no reason.
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
You? No Trrrrrrouble

 

Me? Big Trrrrrouble....me...5th element.....lol

MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
haha as in 5th Element the movie trouble!?!? lol I haven't read you enough, sometimes scared to, you've been quite a lot and everyone's already giving a helping hand. And actually I try to stay out of trouble, this is a first in a while and it was unavoidable. I'll teach you a trick, if you want to stay out of trouble always guess what's going to happen or even go with gut feelings. For me being 23 years old, I don't drink or smoke or any of that. I don't pick on anyone, I actually get more looked up to becaus eI'm always so nice and can take a lot of crap. Sure I can snap like now but you have to roll it off most of the time. Believe in yourself on the person who you are. I'm a super duper weirdo but it keeps me out of trouble with mostly everything and anyone. ^_^
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yeah..love that movie!

 

please talk to me and give me advice if you have...i listen to all...and take in what i need..

 

no one is wierder than i am....

darkseid on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
"no one is wierder than i am...."
that debate-able
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
oh boy @_@ haha look what we've done
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
i don't think so...am the weirdest person ever in existance....and happily so!
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
I am so much weirder than you! You know where I learned about facts of life, haha ANIME and 60's - Mid 90's American Cartoons!!!
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
you've gotta learn somewhere and with the way parents screw you up....cartoons may be on the  money...at least they (cartoons) are always teaching morals or lessons to be a better person
MakenZero on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
yeah unfortunately that was back in the day so to speak. A lot of them are polictically correct @_@. Anyways love I'm off to bed  while I do that just leave a message on why you're the wierdest =P good night sweetie.
avengerbelle on
Re: When Things Fall Apart Freestyle.
just read my entire blog...wish i still had my 1tinkerbelle blog here..then you'd know for sure!

 

nighty night love

 

 i will get that weird list to you...k?


 
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