Something else I've forgotten to mention about myself-- I'm 20. I always forget to mention my age because I normally feel like I'm 40. And if I don't feel 40, I feel 16. So I feel like my age isn't important. BUT MY BIRTHDAY IS. April Fools Day<3
Anyway, today I will talk about where I live. YAY. I live in good ol' Hudson, Florida. Except those of us who live around here will affectionately refer to it as Scudson. We're in between Spring Hood and Port Rehab, and then New Port Nowhere is pretty close by too. Yeahhh man, we love it here . . . or whatever.
Mostly people live in this town at first against their will. Then they find themselves trapped here. And then they die here . . . typically from a drug overdose or from the fact that our highway is the deadliest part of US19 in the country.
However, my town is so unimportant that most Floridians don't know what the fuck I'm saying when I say "Hudson." They usually don't even recognize "Pasco County." At least they know where the Gulf of Mexico is (normally) because I basically live right on that. To make things simpler for people, I just say I'm from Tampa. Technically, I do live outside of Tampa. By considering ourselves part of the Tampa Area, we save ourselves a lot of confused looks when we travel outside the area.
So. Am I stuck here? Going to die here? I am not going to die here. But I actually don't mind it here all that much. You just have to know which scumbags to avoid. But I love Florida. When I move, I'm definitely moving somewhere else in this state. Flip flops all year long<3 And I just like how "Florida" just has bright and sunny connotations. We're here to make you happy :] (We're just trying to change the color on your mood ring<3)
I didn't' always live here. I spent the first 11 years of my life in New Jersey. North Jersey, to be exact, so I have always been from the hood. I was a miserable, depressed, and eventually suicidal child (odd to hear at such a young age, but I started/experienced many things young) and I worked really hard at being happy after moving down here. For that reason, I would never want to live back up north ever again (or at least not in that general area), just because I associate it with depression and misery. It's okay to visit for a bit, but I don't want to risk my sanity by living there again.
I had basically worked myself out of my depression by the time I was 13 but kind of relapsed at 15. 15 and 16 were dark ages and I hid a lot of shit from a lot of people (including my internet friends). I've done things I'm not proud of but it's whatever. I have made sure I am much different person today, and I am generally pretty happy in life. :] I worked hard for happiness, so sometimes it feels good to brag about it. haha. Mostly though, I feel bad for talking about how happy I am when I know some of my close friends are not feeling the same way in their life; I feel like I'm rubbing my awesomeness in their miserable faces when I don't even mean to!
And that's a bit more about my background, I guess. I've traveled all up and down the east coast and every state basically looks the same. I would like to start venturing out west. I really, really want to visit Seattle. Someone should come with me!!!!!!!!
(I promise i will read this later)
I need a visit from my soulmate. <3
Where are you that you have internet?!?!?!!?!!?!??!?!?!?!? !?!
lol @ me being so excited but you couldn't answer for 9 days.
It must feel nice to have internet though.
I'm sorry, bby. <3 I have internet now though.

lol at my image of Florida must be different from anyone elses, nice and sunny is not what I think of!
2004steeni...what an event!
We also have a lot of old people. If people don't think of palm trees and sunshine, they think of old people.
And Disney! People love to think of Disney.
lol I think of:
old people
hurricanes
ghetto/crime
and sunshine I suppose, but HUMID
What did you think of Florida before you met me?
lol the same
I seem to remember too much miami high-speed chases on the highways from television or something
and drugsdrugsdrugs
You probably made me think that the ghetto is more widespread than just the cities haha
Miami shouldn't even count as part of Florida, for serious.
lol what do YOU think of when you think of Pennsylvania?
The Poconos.
Cheesecake.
Greenery.
American Heart Association (lol my grandma worked there).
The Liberty Bell.
lol at I never think of the liberty bell..of it being in pennsylvania or of it in general.
cheesecake??
We used to own land in the Poconos. And there was a cheesecake place on the way up (or on the way home, I guess. We always brought it home). My mom lovedlovedlovedloved that place. I didn't eat cheesecake back then but I would love it now haha.
Pennsylvania makes me think of a bunch of other stuff, but it's mostly sentimental shit.
lol so I had no idea you owned land in Pennsylvania
We lost it when we filed for bankruptcy . . . My grandmother always lived in PA and plus with the land we owned, I probably spent about 40% of my childhood in PA. Every year we were going to move to Pennsylvania. When we had the land (honestly, I have no idea how/why we had it or where we got it from) my dad used to talk about building us a house out there.
Even now my dad still talks about moving to Pennsylvania. Every year I still hear this.
My parents thought about buying land and building a house instead of buying one back in 1992.
My dad and his friends built a house/"camp" up in the moutains..I think I told you that haha
The concept of owning a house was always weird to me, and it still is. My childhood consisted of us either living with family or living in an apartment. And then we moved down here and own a house. It was so weird at first. I thought it was so big, but really my house is small for an actual house. haha.
the concept of renting an apartment is weird/worthless to my parents lol
"but you don't have anything!"
"I don't WANT anything!"
I think owning a house is too much of a hassle.
When you have a big family though, I suppose a house is pretty important.
Maybe even if you have a small family.
I suppose, but it's often cheaper to rent except in a few cities....
with Pittsburgh being one of those expections lol
(according to some stupid survey I seen on yahoo)
becuase these computers use IE, I have to paste the article:
Singer Rihanna is to talk for the first time about being assaulted by her ex-boyfriend Chris Brown in an interview being screened in the US this week.
The 21-year-old will tell ABC's Diane Sawyer what happened on the night of the attack in February, a statement from the TV network said.
Brown was sentenced to five years probation and six months community service in August over the attack.
The interview will be screened on Good Morning America on Thursday and Friday.
ABC said the singer reveals Brown was "definitely my first big love", but adds: "This happened to me - it can happen to anyone."
Rihanna was left bloody and bruised in the attack on the night of the Grammys.
During the interview she also talks about growing up in Barbados, her family life and how she has been over the past nine months since the assault.
Brown was interviewed by CNN's Larry King in September where he said he still loved Rihanna and was in shock over his actions.
She talked about it a bit in whatever magazine she's on the cover on. Glamour.
The best quote:
"I felt like I went to sleep as Rihanna and woke up as Britney Spears."
OSNAP
SAYWHAT
Rihanna said that?
poor Britney!
"I didn't get hit ya'll!"
lmfaooooo
After that she was like "that's how much chaos was going on" or something like that
lol that is funny that she would actually callout another "singer" like that..a popular one too!
It's okay, BRITNEY WILL SURVIVE
lol Rihanna was just trying to explain that her life WENT CRAZY
Just like BritBrit's!
lol except Rihanna shaving her head would not be that strange, she practically already did it!
Yeah, Rihanna gets crazy with her hurr!
I like the way you do it right thurrr right thurrrr
swish yr hips when yr walkin let down yr hurr
Iaintscurrrrrrddd
lol I'm now thinking of "I'm Really Hot" by missy elliot!

I am so tired tonight and I still have shit to do..nothing that horrible but still stuff to do.
Her e-mail was onefuckinghour before we were supposed to meet
"oh I just got back from the doctors and he said I couldn't go anywhere"
whatever. now we're meeting tomorrow at six.
BUT in good news, I got to come home, go to wendy's and made it back in time for ALL of biggest loser!
SILVER LINING.
Does this bitch have a life threatening illness?
is it bad my first thought was to literally type "I hope so"?
Well I was gonna ask
"do you want me to give her one?"
Dont' pretend like we can't give her a shot of something lethal
a shot of metal would do.
The reason I like your new user profile picture is that it looks like a tarantula is living on your eyelid. And I am scared of tarantulas, so that makes you pretty badass

Ha, I'm going to Seattle in April xD.
obviously that is supposed to say *<33
Well . .. I was planning on celebrating my 21st birthday for the ENTIRE month of April.
That is true.
So come with me :-o.
When in April are you going?
I want to go to somewhere I have never been :[
YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN HERE.
I actually am not sure if I have ever been to Pittsburgh or not.
But I've been to Pennsylvania and I want to see the west coast :[
bitchpleaes, this side of the state is nothing like the other side.
BESIDES I AM NOT ON THE WEST COAST.
You should roadtrip with me!
(instead of making a relevant song reference, I'll just use the first one that popped into my head)
WORKIN AT THE
CAR WASH
AIUHVPWEIH FORGOT
did you see the video phone video? was it released?!
I would youtube it now but I want to finish my work before I listen to music/get distracted(because mindsay is not a distraction, OBVIOUSLY)
Yeah just because you read somewhere it was supposed to come out today does not mean you read correctly.
I thought I read it from a credible site lol
(checking gaga daily)
OH. Thursday lol..I must of read it as Tuesday
GIVE ME A BREAK I'M STRESSED

pitypity
lol I even told you Thursday and then you disagreed with me!
>:[
but baby you know I'm always right, I'M THE MAN.
lol j'ai fini mon francais!
DEUTSCH TIME.
That's why you are VIDEO PHONE -LESS TODAY.
oooohhh, burn on my masculinity!
lol I actually don't like that song at all, I just want to see gaga in the video.
frenchgirl likes gaga, so I obviously told her that she went up a few levels.
Of course frenchgirl likes Gaga, I mean, I basically like everything else I've learned about her so this just makes sense.
I wish she was not so busy all the time. Just one of those people that you just click with..we often just start laughing hysterically in french at the smallest things.
anyway, basically done for the night, all I need to do for german is look over vocab words..which I'll do once more tonight and then tomorrow hopefully.
FINALLY I can listen to music(on my own) for the firstfuckingtime today.
My Nicole is like that. I try to get with her buuut she's always got so much going on. I actually asked her the other night how busy her life was right now because I'm trying to squeeze myself into it, and she says "on a scale of 1 to 10, about a 12.5"
I mean, I was once just as busy so I understand but it's hard to be on this side of situation.
"so what did you listen to first?"
STEP TO ME.
in unrelated news, I think I'mma(badbitch) give you a picture of the new haircut+jeans in my bathroom mirror Thursday.
partly because I need to figure out what I want to use as my first facebook picture.
My facebook picture is some screenshot of a conversation Cas and I had on Mindsay forever ago. hahahaha
YOUSO ORG
(that's right I'm rolling with it)
haha AGAIN I read that and want to say "ogre"
wtfever I'LL EMBRACE THIS OGRE SHIT
ORGASMIC.
lol it'll mean original and orgasmic at the same time
just to confuse anyone else even more, TWO ADJECTIVES AT ONCE.
It's possible in scottlingo!
OHOHOH, scottlingo = an official language of STEENSCOTICA
lol...is it scottlingo or scottspeak? OR MAYBE BOTH.
I'm trying to think of which one I normally say lol
DRAWING A BLANK
scottspeak I'm pretty sure
yeah, that does sound better.
god I got an extra hour of sleep and I am so tired right now.
this may have something to do with my eating habits today:
cookie(small)--10:30am
subway--4:45pm
wendy's--8pm
Man I want to try that new buffalo chicken at subway sooooooooo baddddd
(but not bad enough to go out and buy it obv)
lol subways are fucking everywhere wtf there is one three blocks from here and then two basically on campus.
I usually only get subway when I'm at the mall (but I prefer chic-fil-a so we have to see how much $$ I feel like spending) even though there is a subway about halfway in between where I work and where I live.
I have been to chic-fil-a ONCE in my life lol, in a mall!
Chic-fil-a > all other fast food
I hate it because they are closed on Sundays, and I usually go to the mall on a fucking Sunday.
I also hate it because the closest one to me IS in the mall. Ughhhhhh I never want to go to the mall just to get Chic-fil-A.
I'd have to drive 35 minutes to get to one with a drive through (my mall is like 20-25 minutes away . . .right next to Target actually lol)
PSHHH Qdoba > food(fast or slow)
(exaggeration, but it is my favorite fast food place)
I hate how like everything is closed or closes early on sunday.
FUCK GOD AND HIS DAY OF REST.
<27 at socialist Target
1) I had no idea what Qdoba was until you first mentioned it to me
2) I remember when I lived in Bergen County (Diiiirty Jerssseyyy) our mall was closed on Sundays. wtf. Nothing is closed on a Sunday here, so fucking awesome. Things may open later or close later but NOTHING IS CLOSED
(except for Chic-fi-a but that's just their policy).
not much closes I don't think, but basically everything shuts down early
lol you don't need to know how good Qdoba is, JUST THAT IT'S THE BEST.
if you visited me you would find out, JUSTSAYIN
Also JUSTSAYIN that Enver had to visit me first before I went up and visited him!

Ihavenomoney

also: I might of been wrong about video phone, BUT Russian Roulette was (digitally) released today!
Oh I figured (sortof) out what was going on on the 7th.
Jeffree Star has some secret thing he's doing that or whatever haha
starlicious!
hows my bustybaby doin?
She's fine and laying right here next to me :]
The one cat is ripping her hair out(lol we say she is crazy/has issues) and my parents are considering dropping her off at a farm(I wonder if this is common with other people or just my parents haha).
IF they do(I doubt but who knows) I am going to lobby for an all-black cat which I've always wanted.
"you have an apartment, get your own"
"I don't want to take care of it"
my mom says she won't get anymore cats, but I think she'll cave. Cats are easy to take care of!
wtf at a farm?!?!
a;lskdjf;lsdjf;lsf
One of the cats I normally pass on my morning walk was dead on the side of the road today
DISTRAUGHT
If I had a
warmer heart I might of just cried a little at that last sentence

R.I.P. KITTY
I knowww it was horrible :[
I'm jealous of your ability to wear flip-flops year 'round. It's only from like April to October around here, and that's just not long enough.
Well, basically all year round. We can get pretty cold in December and January. But I tough it out.
