dramaWell, whoever the heck visits my page every once in a while - or on a daily basis - I'm sure you'll be able to help me out. I have a Drama exam on Tuesday, and we get to do whatever we want for it - as long as it's around 2 minutes. I'm gonna do a monologue, but I have two I have to choose from. I'll copy and paste them below.
Monologue One
I have a difficult time opening up to people. When I paint—I CAN be vulnerable but it isn’t something that I feel comfortable doing with people. Like when I first meet a man…I have a difficult time talking about my world and my experiences…I have a hard time connecting to someone because for me to share who I really am with someone, they have to be worth it.
I’m not going to share my soul with some random guy. I need to know he matters because what is the point of opening your life up, to only have it shattered. I’ve been shattered before and I will most likely get shattered again…it’s a process of life that I’ve come to understand.
(beat)
I met this wonderful man recently…the problem is that he has a woman back home…he’s from Spain and he’s here on business but this man is someone I have a connection with, someone I can share everything with, someone I can share things with on a deeper level but what holds me back for obvious reasons is his relationship.
What am I to do? (pause) Such is life, isn’t it? It figures that I would finally meet a man who I can—and the thing stopping me isn’t me…but an outside force.
(beat)
So you see, my work is my life, my life is my work. Being an artist gives me a definition that I can live with but even I get sick of it all. Sometimes I feel that I am ready for the next step after life. But then again, I have in me many more canvases I wish to paint. I need to—paint.
He will be part of my canvas…
Monologue Two
I keep things in. Things. Emotions. My emotions…I know that that’s probably not a good thing.
Life has made me that way I guess. I have a tendency to show no emotion when I am feeling emotion.
I just have a hard time opening up to someone. I get closed off. I feel that by being emotional in front of someone, kind of makes me very vulnerable and weak and I have a hard time with that. You know, being in that state of vulnerability, it’s not a place where I like to be because I feel like I’m not in control. When I’m not in control I get anxiety.
Whenever I truly loved anybody and opened myself up to them, they have always stabbed me in the back. I have a hard time with that, trusting people. It can be anyone, friends, family, boyfriend. I’m not sure if I truly trust anyone in my life. It’s sort of a protective shield I’ve put up and it only gets stronger with time.
I do desire to be more vulnerable but at the same time I desire to stay protected. I feel torn. Every time I do take a risk I get hurt. Not sure if I should keep taking those risks.
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I was thinking of combining the two, since they are both very short. What do you think? If anything, I'll probably just do the one about the artist talking about finding somebody special. They're both very interesting - but I'm confused about what to do... Should I combine them, or just stick with one?
