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i think the enemy of our souls just wants us to think there is something wrong with us, so that we have excuses to do what we want to do when they are not right....
could you not perhaps have been pms' ing? Girls your age have all kinds of mood swings; it is just a case of coping with them and being on your guard when you know you are feeling that way, so you won't do anything you regret.
everyone feels under pressure from time to time, and everyone feels frustrated, wanting to snap people's heads off...I sometimes used to think that I could just kill someone and not even give it a second thought, but just had to get over it already! Thank the Lord I had God to rely on...because I was usually able to feel his presence when i called on his name...he brings peace.
could you not perhaps have been pms' ing? Girls your age have all kinds of mood swings; it is just a case of coping with them and being on your guard when you know you are feeling that way, so you won't do anything you regret.
everyone feels under pressure from time to time, and everyone feels frustrated, wanting to snap people's heads off...I sometimes used to think that I could just kill someone and not even give it a second thought, but just had to get over it already! Thank the Lord I had God to rely on...because I was usually able to feel his presence when i called on his name...he brings peace.
I don't know if I'm PMSing. I do do that, though. For some girls I know, their period is something they "enjoy". Or they feel happy and bouncy when they get. Completly opposite case with me. I don't have my period yet this month, and I don't expect it to arrive anytime soon. I hope it doesn't come near the time of my fieldtrip, or I will seriously be miffed.
I never used to be under pressure, or feel angry. But now my angry, hostile, and angry mindsets are now lasting longer than ever - even this one, has lasted since yesterday, which is unusual. I often think that actually killing somebody would make it all just come to a halt.
And, lucky you.
I never used to be under pressure, or feel angry. But now my angry, hostile, and angry mindsets are now lasting longer than ever - even this one, has lasted since yesterday, which is unusual. I often think that actually killing somebody would make it all just come to a halt.
And, lucky you.
not just lucky me, goofy; he will give you peace, too, if you only ask...
I say "lucky you" because you've got somebody to rely on. You have somebody to talk to. But yet, the same person you have by your side and walk with is somebody that I don't have and I haven't really talked to or have been fond of for the past little while - even this weekend. Asking is most of the battle. I don't want to ask, because I don't know how - and I find there's no point because he can always worry about somebody else.I find that He doesn't really care. Fine by me, really.
Now you know you are talking hogwash, my little friend. You want to feel God's presence and know you have a good relationship with him, but you don't want to make the effort. He is not a Santa Claus. It takes two to form any relationship, and maybe when you stop being so totally self centered and "poor pitiful me" ing...you will have great friends and the best friend ever in Jesus.
I want to feel Him, but at the same time I don't. I don't want to become one of those absorbed Christians like my parents. I can't see myself being that way. And I know he isn't Santa. Maybe this is all happening for a reason. Maybe it isn't. Maybe He's testing me. Maybe he isn't. All I can be sure of right now is that I'm lost.
At least you know you are lost; that is the first step in finding the right path and ending up at the right destination.
And being "sold out" or absorbed as you put it, is the only way if you truly want peace. The Bible says that a double minded man is unstable in all his ways, and I have found that to be so true, so many times in my life. Whenever I start to look toward things I think I "can't" have because I am a Christian, or start to think that the grass may just be greener on the other side, and slowly but surely veer off of the straight and narrow....that is when I am miserable. To live completely for Christ is to have his complete protection and peace, even in the midst of storms...which will always be there...but I don't have to be alone...and neither do you.
And being "sold out" or absorbed as you put it, is the only way if you truly want peace. The Bible says that a double minded man is unstable in all his ways, and I have found that to be so true, so many times in my life. Whenever I start to look toward things I think I "can't" have because I am a Christian, or start to think that the grass may just be greener on the other side, and slowly but surely veer off of the straight and narrow....that is when I am miserable. To live completely for Christ is to have his complete protection and peace, even in the midst of storms...which will always be there...but I don't have to be alone...and neither do you.
If she feels you're someone she can confide in, that might be a compliment - social butterflys tend to have a lot of superficial friends - ones that aren't very deep or serious, or who they'd be scared of saying anything genuine too. She knows you're serious and you won't hurt her for confiding in you, I think that's why she comes to you.
It could just be stress, I get that sometimes - the wild animal within. I make a choice to not act on it, I sometimes need space and time, and it'll go. There's a mental condition to describe every aspect of normal human behaviour - labels just isolate people and invite prejudices and self-criticism and lack of self-belief, really we're shades of grey and usually experience the whole spectrum of the same set of emotions (it's normal), also generally, just identifying what makes you feel like that (although hard) can help a lot - because then you'll know what to do and you'll feel better I think (when you've found the right reason)
It could just be stress, I get that sometimes - the wild animal within. I make a choice to not act on it, I sometimes need space and time, and it'll go. There's a mental condition to describe every aspect of normal human behaviour - labels just isolate people and invite prejudices and self-criticism and lack of self-belief, really we're shades of grey and usually experience the whole spectrum of the same set of emotions (it's normal), also generally, just identifying what makes you feel like that (although hard) can help a lot - because then you'll know what to do and you'll feel better I think (when you've found the right reason)
I never thought of it that way... So, thanks for "reinforcing" (?) that point.
I feel like it is stress. For the past couple days, it feels as though everything is crashing down and time is going by so slowly. I typically write down/about my feelings, but never fully analyze them and pick out possible reasons or triggers to why I may be feeling that way. And I defiantly don't attempt trying to find a "cure" or method to take it away - because I'm not motivated to do anything about it.
Thanks for replying.
I feel like it is stress. For the past couple days, it feels as though everything is crashing down and time is going by so slowly. I typically write down/about my feelings, but never fully analyze them and pick out possible reasons or triggers to why I may be feeling that way. And I defiantly don't attempt trying to find a "cure" or method to take it away - because I'm not motivated to do anything about it.
Thanks for replying.
Good! You're welcome. It's a good result when... these are things that deep down people know inside naturally (subconciously), or can/will work out, but just await being brought to the surface - it's reinforcing because really you already knew it but, it helped to bring it up. You see often people will tell you things you already know (i.e. that nobody can take everything away from you), but exactly the same thing will have an impact on someone else - and from the perspective of whoever's saying it it is just the luck of what happens to help - and since they don't know what that'll be, and also as people don't know you as a person, you'll often get an over-reactive/paranoid response.
Deal with it in your own time, in your own way I guess - when something becomes enough of a problem, then you'd have your own reasons, and analyse it under your own steam - which is good because you'll feel it's your free choice, rather than if someone forced you to 'soulsearch' - which isn't possible anyway. Like everyone else, you make the decision at what point's best for you, on your journey - and nobody can validly judge you for that as there's no way of comparing at what point each person's at, and your decisions are your business only, and it doesn't matter anyway how each of us gets to a peaceful, happy + coopoerative mindstate, as long as we do.
You're welcome. It's a good result when... these are things that deep down people know inside naturally (subconciously), or can/will work out, but just await being brought to the surface - it's reinforcing because really you already knew it but, it helped to bring it up. You see often people will tell you things you already know (i.e. that nobody can take everything away from you), but exactly the same thing will have an impact on someone else - and from the perspective of whoever's saying it it is just the luck of what happens to help - and since they don't know what that'll be, and also as people don't know you as a person, you'll often get an over-reactive/paranoid response. Deal with it in your own time, in your own way I guess
- when something becomes enough of a problem, then you'd have your own reasons, and analyse it under your own steam - which is good because you'll feel it's your free choice, rather than if someone forced you to 'soulsearch' - which isn't possible anyway. Like everyone else, you make the decision at what point's best for you, on your journey - and nobody can validly judge you for that as there's no way of comparing at what point each person's at, and your decisions are your business only, and it doesn't matter anyway how each of us gets to a peaceful, happy + coopoerative mindstate, as long as we do. Quick Links
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