Okay, everybody remember the girl I liked in school that I mentioned in earlier posts? I've maintained minimal contact with her, though we still talk sometimes. Maybe it's brought on by lack of things to do, but I can't get her outta my head. She has taken over my mind in a way, and when I'm trying to fall asleep or just waking up, she's the only thing I can think about. From thoughts of the times we had to what I could've done with her if I'd only known...
Next week my family and I are going to a dance concert in San Antonio because my sister is a part of it, and the girl just happens to be there. After the concert the dance company plans to go to Water World, and my family is going too. I don't know whether I should try to spend some time with her or just stay away from her completely. On one hand, spending time with her might just strengthen my infatuation, on the other, not going with her would make me want to know what would've happened if I'd spent sometime with her.
In a best-scenario case from my enslaved mind I get to spend the whole day with her. I really don't know what she's triggered in my mind, but I can't get her out of my head. Strengthening the infatuation would only make things worse because she's moving away sometime this month. If she wasn't moving away, at least I could see her at a later date, but that will probably be the last time I'll ever see her again, which is depressing beyond belief. I can't believe how much that sucks, though she doesn't want to move either.
"At least," says my poor mind, "you can still talk to her on MSN." Oh well, I'm going to try to let things just happen and hope that maybe someday I can find somebody like her. It won't be easy, but maybe out there somewhere... One can only hope.
Tune in next time for another exciting adventure from EvilSnack, stud extroadinare.
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